Venting CTB impact on partners.

[Johndoe5381]

I feel like I have come to terms with saying goodbye but I have heart wrenching guilt when I think about how it will destroy my wife. There is nothing else that matters to me apart from her but there are times when I feel myself slipping past that threshold.

The constant back and forth between resolution and guilt is so emotionally exhausting.

Our minds are such utterly cruel devices, are they not?

sorry for venting.

edit: I just feel very sad.

 

[chrisbate7]

I'm in the same boat. Been married for 14 years and she's been by my side. The thought of me ending our marriage and abandoning her through my suicide is true hell. Yet how do I stay here in the mental anguish I feel everyday?