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otaku01

otaku01

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Mar 11, 2020
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Here is my suicide attempt with sodium nitrite. Half an hour after drinking 10 mg Metoclopramide, I mixed 5mg sn into water and drank it. Nothing happened for the first hour. I thought Sn was impure. Then I had nausea and dizziness and lay down in bed. My hands were purple. Then the nausea got worse, I wanted to vomit, but I didn't have the strength to get out of bed. I immediately started vomiting next to me. At that moment, my consciousness started to get blurry. I was just vomiting violently. Then I opened my eyes in the intensive care unit of the hospital. I stayed in intensive care for 2 days. In general, it was a painless procedure other than vomiting. The doctor said my tachycardia was high, but I didn't feel anything. I wanted to share it with you.
 
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sadalways

sadalways

My birth was an error
Sep 5, 2024
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Thank you for sharing. I'm so afraid i'll start vomiting, that's my biggest fear about SN ;-;
 
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sadalways

My birth was an error
Sep 5, 2024
293
You vomit so much
from what i've read on this forum some people report vomiting like you did and some don't vomit at all. 🤔
 
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g0ne1nthew1nd

final peace and comfort in goodbye
Feb 11, 2025
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Here is my suicide attempt with sodium nitrite. Half an hour after drinking 10 mg Metoclopramide, I mixed 5mg sn into water and drank it. Nothing happened for the first hour. I thought Sn was impure. Then I had nausea and dizziness and lay down in bed. My hands were purple. Then the nausea got worse, I wanted to vomit, but I didn't have the strength to get out of bed. I immediately started vomiting next to me. At that moment, my consciousness started to get blurry. I was just vomiting violently. Then I opened my eyes in the intensive care unit of the hospital. I stayed in intensive care for 2 days. In general, it was a painless procedure other than vomiting. The doctor said my tachycardia was high, but I didn't feel anything. I wanted to share it with you.
This helped calm me a lot on my fears, tysm for sharing. May peace be with you <33
 
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Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
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On a scale from 1 to 10 how bad was the experience?
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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How old was the SN ? U used only 5 grams? Did they say that would have been lethal if not taken to hospital ?
 
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otaku01

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Mar 11, 2020
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How old was the SN ? U used only 5 grams? Did they say that would have been lethal if not taken to hospital ?
Yeah it was 5 gram of it. Doctors said exactly this. I would have been dead if they have no methylene blue
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,311
Yeah it was 5 gram of it. Doctors said exactly this. I would have been dead if they have no methylene blue
When did u.Buy the Sn was it years old.
 
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been__ready

Student
Nov 25, 2024
127
Thank you for sharing your experience.. did you do this just to make sure the method was effective? Relieved to hear there was no permanent damage?

Did they put you in intensive psych care for a suicide attempt? Surely they wouldn't just let you go if they knew it was a genuine attempt. Hope somehow you were able to talk your way out of it.

Was your source DMC?
 
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shame

Student
Jul 17, 2024
120
Here is my suicide attempt with sodium nitrite. Half an hour after drinking 10 mg Metoclopramide, I mixed 5mg sn into water and drank it. Nothing happened for the first hour. I thought Sn was impure. Then I had nausea and dizziness and lay down in bed. My hands were purple. Then the nausea got worse, I wanted to vomit, but I didn't have the strength to get out of bed. I immediately started vomiting next to me. At that moment, my consciousness started to get blurry. I was just vomiting violently. Then I opened my eyes in the intensive care unit of the hospital. I stayed in intensive care for 2 days. In general, it was a painless procedure other than vomiting. The doctor said my tachycardia was high, but I didn't feel anything. I wanted to share it with you.
Sorry for asking, who did find you? Do you know how soon?
 
3FailedAttemptss

3FailedAttemptss

trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
117
My family found me. When i start to puke. Thats where i lost my conciousness.
Did they know specifically that you'd ingested SN or when was the methylene blue administered?
 
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regular john

Experienced
Dec 17, 2020
277
Here is my suicide attempt with sodium nitrite. Half an hour after drinking 10 mg Metoclopramide, I mixed 5mg sn into water and drank it. Nothing happened for the first hour. I thought Sn was impure. Then I had nausea and dizziness and lay down in bed. My hands were purple. Then the nausea got worse, I wanted to vomit, but I didn't have the strength to get out of bed. I immediately started vomiting next to me. At that moment, my consciousness started to get blurry. I was just vomiting violently. Then I opened my eyes in the intensive care unit of the hospital. I stayed in intensive care for 2 days. In general, it was a painless procedure other than vomiting. The doctor said my tachycardia was high, but I didn't feel anything. I wanted to share it with you.
did you do it on purpose close to your family ?
 
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ChefTesta

Member
Feb 12, 2025
53
Thank you for sharing. I'm so afraid i'll start vomiting, that's my biggest fear about SN ;-;
I can relate to this. Why I backed out of drinking SN TWICE just because I knew I would throw up because I have a weaker stomach, even with antiemetics. I will bump my thread with my story as to hoping I could get more insight from individuals like you
 
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otaku01

otaku01

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Mar 11, 2020
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Did they know specifically that you'd ingested SN or when was the methylene blue administered?
Yes they knew i i ingested sn. and they wait 1 day or so for blue.
Did they know specifically that you'd ingested SN or when was the methylene blue administered?
did you do it on purpose close to your family ?
nope. ı was in the office and waited there for 1 hour to die. 1 hours later i went to the home and this is where sn start to kick in.
 
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NitrogenAfternoon

NitrogenAfternoon

Finding My Peace
Jan 20, 2025
142
Doesn't sound too bad tbh. I've had nights where my stomach kept vomiting and I couldn't even keep water down. It got to a point where I'd heave out blood. I am really not worried about the vomit given my past experiences. I will definitely bring a bag or garbage beside me for the hotel room, or maybe just die by the toilet on the bathroom floor.
 
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paranous

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Jun 20, 2023
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Thanks for sharing your experience with us. So are you planning to use sn again?
 
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kvorumese

"Wiped Out!"
Oct 21, 2024
129
Did you use any antiemetics? (Is metoclopramide an antiemetic?)
 
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Peter Skellern

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Jan 10, 2025
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This is why SN in capsules as an idea should be further explored. It certainly has merit.
 
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shame

Student
Jul 17, 2024
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Here is my suicide attempt with sodium nitrite. Half an hour after drinking 10 mg Metoclopramide, I mixed 5mg sn into water and drank it. Nothing happened for the first hour. I thought Sn was impure. Then I had nausea and dizziness and lay down in bed. My hands were purple. Then the nausea got worse, I wanted to vomit, but I didn't have the strength to get out of bed. I immediately started vomiting next to me. At that moment, my consciousness started to get blurry. I was just vomiting violently. Then I opened my eyes in the intensive care unit of the hospital. I stayed in intensive care for 2 days. In general, it was a painless procedure other than vomiting. The doctor said my tachycardia was high, but I didn't feel anything. I wanted to share it with you.
Did you fast before?
 
internetyamero

internetyamero

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Oct 17, 2024
32
thank you for sharing your experience.

Did you use any antiemetics? (Is metoclopramide an antiemetic?)

yes, metoclopramide is an an antiemetic. it's one of the dopamine blocking ones suggested in the sn megathread.
 
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