Venting Couldn’t reach an artery

[hikishida]

I wish I had read the "non-methods" post about cutting before I attempted last night. I remember seeing this short film that ended in a wrist slit suicide, it looked so peaceful and from what I heard about self harm endorphins it seemed like it could be euphoric.

Well now I have 11 ugly slices on my forearm and peace seems even further away than I was hoping for.

I just want to go back to the way things were, have another chance. It's been over a year but I still miss my ex so much.

 

[TheHolySword]

Fictional media will always glam up suicides to be so much different than they really are. Cutting and ODing are not the peace they are portrayed as, nor are they even a reliable method. Even the way hanging is portrayed is usually incorrect. I hate how glamorized it all can be, they make it look easy and glitzy and whatever and lead people astray. It's a difficult decision to come to and it's even more difficult to succeed.

I am so sorry that you are suffering and that your life has led you to this moment. The world can be unrelenting and cruel and we are burdened to carry it out without recourse. While you may have scarring and you may think those marks ugly, I am glad you know now of the thread of what to avoid. From this point forward, if you need help finding safer and more effective methods, there is so much information to be found. Peace can still be found, wherever that may be and whatever it may look like. I hope you can find yours one day.

 

[hikishida]

Fictional media will always glam up suicides to be so much different than they really are. Cutting and ODing are not the peace they are portrayed as, nor are they even a reliable method. Even the way hanging is portrayed is usually incorrect. I hate how glamorized it all can be, they make it look easy and glitzy and whatever and lead people astray. It's a difficult decision to come to and it's even more difficult to succeed.

I am so sorry that you are suffering and that your life has led you to this moment. The world can be unrelenting and cruel and we are burdened to carry it out without recourse. While you may have scarring and you may think those marks ugly, I am glad you know now of the thread of what to avoid. From this point forward, if you need help finding safer and more effective methods, there is so much information to be found. Peace can still be found, wherever that may be and whatever it may look like. I hope you can find yours one day.

I'm really hoping for the other side to be some sort of peaceful afterlife or reincarnation into a more fair and loving world. I'm so tired of everything.

 

[TheHolySword]

I'm really hoping for the other side to be some sort of peaceful afterlife or reincarnation into a more fair and loving world. I'm so tired of everything.

I understand. I am exhausted too. I'm hoping for any relief or reprieve of it all. Whether that is total non existence or blissful mindless peace or a heaven it doesn't matter. As long as I am released from this. Please know that as long as you are still here, we are here for you

 

[hikishida]

non existence doesn't sound too bad. Thank you for being here for me, I'm sorry you're in pain as well

 

[shrizoid]

I wish I had read the "non-methods" post about cutting before I attempted last night. I remember seeing this short film that ended in a wrist slit suicide, it looked so peaceful and from what I heard about self harm endorphins it seemed like it could be euphoric.

Well now I have 11 ugly slices on my forearm and peace seems even further away than I was hoping for.

I just want to go back to the way things were, have another chance. It's been over a year but I still miss my ex so much.

I also miss somebody who used to be extremely close and important to me, it fucking sucks, I'm so sorry that you have to suffer with this as well, it's honestly one of my final straws for/if I ctb, I've never considered ctb by cutting however as it seems like a horrid method but I have given myself tiny cuts so I know what it's like

 

[hikishida]

I also miss somebody who used to be extremely close and important to me, it fucking sucks, I'm so sorry that you have to suffer with this as well, it's honestly one of my final straws for/if I ctb, I've never considered ctb by cutting however as it seems like a horrid method but I have given myself tiny cuts so I know what it's like

It does suck. It really fucking sucks. He said we were gonna get married some day but my mental health collapsed out of nowhere and I never had a chance to fix anything before he ended things with me

 

[MOROK]

I feel sorry for you, truly. I understand how hard it is. I hope you won't do anything rushed!