willitpass
Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
- Mar 10, 2020
- 3,219
I'm still in residential. I've been away from home for almost a quarter of a year at this point. I miss my family and my friends and my cat horribly. I feel no better than before. I've developed horrible brain fog, possibly from the meds. I also am so restless I can't sit still, also possibly from the meds. I'm so irritable at all times. My only reprieve seems to be materialistic things. Opening a new package for a dopamine rush. Getting a new game so I can feel something enjoyable while I play it. Finding a new thing to do for a few days. I'm blowing through money I don't have just to get a short boost in my mood. The residential is starting to notice. What does it matter if I'm out of money? No one needs money when they're dead.
