Venting Carving Out My Own Little Vent Thread

[INYGTRMTFMO]

- My husband is acutely aware of the intensity of my suicidal ideation -- had a crashout last month and would have ctb if my SI weren't so high -- and he mentioned casually during Thanksgiving, after his cousin showed off a fancy pistol at Thanksgiving dinner ('Murica!), that he'd like to buy a gun to add to his knife collection. While I don't think I'd actually have the guts to shoot myself with it, a part of me is like "The way I would N O T even entertain the thought of purchasing a firearm if YOU were the suicidal one".

- Vagueposting until after the results appointment this week on the rare, rare chance that my neuropsych lurks SS and the even rarer chance she ties this account to me, but said appointment may make or break me (specifically, is at least some of what is wrong with me treatable orrrrr am I just fucked, because I'm increasingly feeling like maybe I'm just fucked?).

- I hate myself for hating my job because it has Objectively Positive Societal Value (human services), but man is this job stressing me out because we're spread too thin and with too few resources to be servicing all these humans.

Anyway, hope y'all's week has had at least some positive moments in it. <3

 

[TheCavernousDeep.]

As a human, I'm thankful you're doing a job that's good for humanity!

And… I mean honestly you could just tell your husband right? I mean he's your husband. If you said "we definitely can't buy a gun. I'm worried I'd hurt myself with it." I mean he's got to be understanding about that right? Especially if it's just an aesthetic thing for his knife collection. I know you feel like he should be aware of why buying a gun is a bad idea, but men can be very stupid (source: me being a man), and sometimes you just need to spell things out for them before it clicks. Worth a shot imo.

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

As a human, I'm thankful you're doing a job that's good for humanity!

And… I mean honestly you could just tell your husband right? I mean he's your husband. If you said "we definitely can't buy a gun. I'm worried I'd hurt myself with it." I mean he's got to be understanding about that right? Especially if it's just an aesthetic thing for his knife collection. I know you feel like he should be aware of why buying a gun is a bad idea, but men can be very stupid (source: me being a man), and sometimes you just need to spell things out for them before it clicks. Worth a shot imo.

You're probably right.