Help Car accident seemed to ruin everything for me

[squirrels]

My family has always been indifferent towards me. Not really anything different. But I could manage it because I was started to move away from them.

I ended up in a car accident and ended up dependent on my family, and this has made everything worse. They get angry when I don't do anything because of brain fogs or headaches. I can't drive anywhere, and being driven makes me anxious. I told them I had a concussion from the accident, and I had diagnosis papers and everything, and they insist I'm making it up. I may be getting scammed from a different clinic that suddenly called me, because I thought it was associated with a previous clinic I went to. I have the worst time taking care of basic tasks and I just break things in anger.

The voices in my head have come back as a result. There is nothing to make them shut up, I can only tolerate it.

I plan on having them know. Why? Because I have an 18 year old cat and am now having issues taking care of her. I left a suicide note out for my family but they've ignored it. If my brother won't take my cat I may have to find someone else.

I'm probably sounding irrational and impulsive right now, but there is literally nothing I can do now.

Edit: Oh yeah, and my mom threatened to kick me out on the street when I said multiple times that I was having issues from the concussion. Bastard.

 

[iji]

I have chronic pain and understand those family issues and dependency on others. It's already really hard to deal with the physical symptoms, and it's so distressing when people so close to us act as dehumanizing with us time and time again. Many intrusive thoughts also get into my mind on death, fear, anxiety, so on. It's really hard, but I'm trying to live one day at a time.

Wish you the best

 

[squirrels]

when people so close to us act as dehumanizing with us time and time again.

This is an understatement. I try to be polite but all it seems to do is give them permission to treat me like shit.

I haven't been "normal" since the accident happened and it feels like I may not go back to normal. Normally I don't act as angry.

I had plans to eventually get a job overseas in a few years and now I feel too hopeless to do much right now. I guess it really only takes one bad day.

 

[tiredoflife2]

That's really nasty of your mum to threaten to kick you out like that. Family can be awful. Mine are the same with me, I would hate to have to depend on them. Blood is not thicker than water.

 

[squirrels]

When I was a little kid I thought I had reincarnated from a past life. Back then, I hadn't known about the concept of reincarnation and I mostly went to church, and all the people around me were Christian. If I reincarnate I don't know what animal I'd want to be. Maybe a cat, cats were always good towards me. Maybe a squirrel but squirrels can get weird diseases like being infected with flies burrowing into their flesh. Maybe if I were lucky I would be a human but I think humans become burdened through overthinking life.

I am mostly sad that I may have to die before my cat does.