Idon'tknow828
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- Apr 18, 2023
- 47
I need help/advice!
I'm not gonna reveal my real name but my nick name is Sky. I'm 19F and from the US. I don't like being the kind of person who leaches or asks for things, that's not me. However, I'm in a seriously fucked up place right now.
Last night I heavily contemplated suicide. I had SN in hand and all. It made me cry like a baby lol. I realized that I don't actually want to to die. I just don't want to live the life I'm living.
For context my parents are what most people consider insane or mentally ill. It's a lot to explain here but that pretty much sums it up. They're dragging me down with them. My suicide attempt was a way to escape that but that's when I realized I don't actually want to die I just want to get away from them.
I'm not overdramatizing the situation like many people would expect a teenager to. They are truly unwell and I can't save them from themselves. So i need to save myself.
My sister has been kind enough to open her home up to me after I asked for help last night. However, she's in a tough place herself and has kids so asking for anything more is inappropriate and unacceptable. I'm thankful that I just have a place to go.
Where the dilemma comes in at is, I don't have enough money to get to her place or sustain myself until i get a job and a paycheck (which hopefully won't be more than a couple of months.)
The car that I'm using to drive 12-14 hours to get to her is in poor condition and I don't think it will make the trip without repairs. I thought of just leaving the car and getting a plane ticket but I'm gonna need my own mode of transportation when I'm there.
Does someone know of a way to help me? Any resources I could use. Or methods for quick cash?
If you've made it this far thank you for hearing me out and listening to my story!
I'm not gonna reveal my real name but my nick name is Sky. I'm 19F and from the US. I don't like being the kind of person who leaches or asks for things, that's not me. However, I'm in a seriously fucked up place right now.
Last night I heavily contemplated suicide. I had SN in hand and all. It made me cry like a baby lol. I realized that I don't actually want to to die. I just don't want to live the life I'm living.
For context my parents are what most people consider insane or mentally ill. It's a lot to explain here but that pretty much sums it up. They're dragging me down with them. My suicide attempt was a way to escape that but that's when I realized I don't actually want to die I just want to get away from them.
I'm not overdramatizing the situation like many people would expect a teenager to. They are truly unwell and I can't save them from themselves. So i need to save myself.
My sister has been kind enough to open her home up to me after I asked for help last night. However, she's in a tough place herself and has kids so asking for anything more is inappropriate and unacceptable. I'm thankful that I just have a place to go.
Where the dilemma comes in at is, I don't have enough money to get to her place or sustain myself until i get a job and a paycheck (which hopefully won't be more than a couple of months.)
The car that I'm using to drive 12-14 hours to get to her is in poor condition and I don't think it will make the trip without repairs. I thought of just leaving the car and getting a plane ticket but I'm gonna need my own mode of transportation when I'm there.
Does someone know of a way to help me? Any resources I could use. Or methods for quick cash?
If you've made it this far thank you for hearing me out and listening to my story!
