So yeah it's my birthday tomorrow I hate my birthday. Three days after our birth my twin and I was born, always wish it was me that was gone. Always felt like a part of me was missing - then at 8 well I found out I had a twin
Feel they'd of made more of there life, I hate my so called life and have made peace with choosing to end my life.
I'm trying to save funeral money up or as much as I can. To then take the money out and give to parents. Obviously not directly as giving it them while I'm alive would make them paranoid, leave it in my bungalow for them to find.
Even in lockdown they are allowed 30, that gives plenty for family and maybe a few friends.
The mental health team think I'm doing better as I've given up ringing asking for help to be told to use distractions. I am doing therapy and it's kind of helping but it's going to take a long time for therapy to fully help. I'm fed up with feeling like I do and lived like this too long
Feel they'd of made more of there life, I hate my so called life and have made peace with choosing to end my life.
I'm trying to save funeral money up or as much as I can. To then take the money out and give to parents. Obviously not directly as giving it them while I'm alive would make them paranoid, leave it in my bungalow for them to find.
Even in lockdown they are allowed 30, that gives plenty for family and maybe a few friends.
The mental health team think I'm doing better as I've given up ringing asking for help to be told to use distractions. I am doing therapy and it's kind of helping but it's going to take a long time for therapy to fully help. I'm fed up with feeling like I do and lived like this too long
