Being permanently out with society

[Defenestration]

Being permanently out with society

People have desires, projects, some suffer from long bouts of depression but love life and want to get out of it...while I, and many others here, have only one obsession: to die...to seek what everyone fears... I am marginalized, completely apart...people talk about doing things, but I only dream of dying in my sleep, or I've been waiting for three years now for the moment when my survival instinct will leave me alone.

Im feel alone...

 

[_Gollum_]

I know what you mean...my only "life project" is to die. There is no "ideal life" out there that I would want to live. It makes it impossible to relate to others...

"My heart is empty, and the emptiness a mirror facing me. I see myself and am filled with loathing and horror. My indifference to men has shut me out from their company. I live now in a world of ghosts, a prisoner of my dreams and fantasies." - The Seventh Seal