Being new here stinks..

[sick&tired]

I'm waiting patiently to not be the newbie here. It sucks! I just want to know how/where to source SN so that I have the peace of knowing I can go when I physically can't take the pain/discomfort anymore. Living in this broken body has been absolute torture</3 Money is not a factor here. Shoot, I'd pay whatever if someone could get N, although I know that's virtually impossible these days. Can someone please help guide me since I'm unable to access so many functions at this time. I'm worried if too much time goes by, I won't be able to get it all anymore :(

 

[Elsie]

I'm new too... And I'm really sorry you're feeling this way. It must incredibly painful and overwhelming right now.
If it's alright, may I hear your story? Don't tell me if it too painful!

 

[sick&tired]

I'm new too... And I'm really sorry you're feeling this way. It must incredibly painful and overwhelming right now.
If it's alright, may I hear your story? Don't tell me if it too painful!

Hi fellow newbie

I was diagnosed with a chronic/debilitating disease a little over a year ago and my life has just deteriorated so quickly </3 I went from being a completely able-bodied, functioning
member of society to having little to no quality of life at all. I'm in my 30s and have the most amazing, loving people in my life…
Honestly, I'd do anything to feel better so I could continue this life by their side, but it seems so incredibly hopeless. Over the last 7 mos. I have tried every available treatment and I just keep getting worse :( There is currently nothing fda approved for what I have..everything is "off label.."
Feeling trapped in your body is agonizing..
It all happened so quickly and I'm struggling to cope. Anyway, I want to be here but I am suffering way too much & the unknown literally terrifies me. I feel like the medical world has completely let me down & so many others too. Your health is literally everything..I wish more people valued it.

Thank you for caring.. I'm here for you too

 

[Alexandra0]

sick&tired, you have such a beautiful avatar

 

[darksouls]

Hi fellow newbie

I was diagnosed with a chronic/debilitating disease a little over a year ago and my life has just deteriorated so quickly </3 I went from being a completely able-bodied, functioning
member of society to having little to no quality of life at all. I'm in my 30s and have the most amazing, loving people in my life…
Honestly, I'd do anything to feel better so I could continue this life by their side, but it seems so incredibly hopeless. Over the last 7 mos. I have tried every available treatment and I just keep getting worse :( There is currently nothing fda approved for what I have..everything is "off label.."
Feeling trapped in your body is agonizing..
It all happened so quickly and I'm struggling to cope. Anyway, I want to be here but I am suffering way too much & the unknown literally terrifies me. I feel like the medical world has completely let me down & so many others too. Your health is literally everything..I wish more people valued it.

Thank you for caring.. I'm here for you too

agree with you
health is a precious commodity
I am very sorry for your situation
sending you hugs and love

 

[deathbydesign]

I'm new too. I agree it's frustrating to finally find a community that understands - to learn that there are way better ways of doing it than you had planned on before finding yourself here - and to not be able to figure out how to obtain it. But I also completely understand why the rules are what they are and why older members are protecting sources. I get it completely.

Just fyi - N is an impossibility now. So if you get random messages or find some online - it is 100% a scam. Scratch that method off your list for sure.

I've been trying really hard to make myself interact more on the forums. I spent so many weeks just reading all the old threads, getting to know members who aren't even here, and in my own little world. And social anxiety stops me too. So I've been trying to become a better participant here. Because as strange as it sounds, this place has saved me. I'm certainly still quite in a bad place - but I'm still alive because of being here.

Knowing so many people understand exactly how I feel, when the people in my real life are so clueless, it's really comforting to be here.

Anyway - can you tell my adhd meds have long worn off lol

Have a great rest of your day - and I hope you soon find the information you seek. In the meantime, get acquainted :)

 

[sick&tired]

agree with you
health is a precious commodity
I am very sorry for your situation
sending you hugs and love

Means a lot, truly

sick&tired, you have such a beautiful avatar

Thank you My fur kids are everything
to me animals > everything else lol.

 

[Ariel1]

Hi fellow newbie

I was diagnosed with a chronic/debilitating disease a little over a year ago and my life has just deteriorated so quickly </3 I went from being a completely able-bodied, functioning
member of society to having little to no quality of life at all. I'm in my 30s and have the most amazing, loving people in my life…
Honestly, I'd do anything to feel better so I could continue this life by their side, but it seems so incredibly hopeless. Over the last 7 mos. I have tried every available treatment and I just keep getting worse :( There is currently nothing fda approved for what I have..everything is "off label.."
Feeling trapped in your body is agonizing..
It all happened so quickly and I'm struggling to cope. Anyway, I want to be here but I am suffering way too much & the unknown literally terrifies me. I feel like the medical world has completely let me down & so many others too. Your health is literally everything..I wish more people valued it.

Thank you for caring.. I'm here for you too

Have you seen a naturopath or tried nutrition/supplements for your condition? I'm a holistic nutritionist, I'd be happy to chat if you want.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much, it's just so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in this torturous existence, I also wish for Nembutal and I suffer so much from how it is made inaccessible with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to prolong no matter what instead, I hope you find peace.

 

[SVEN]

I'm waiting patiently to not be the newbie here. It sucks! I just want to know how/where to source SN so that I have the peace of knowing I can go when I physically can't take the pain/discomfort anymore. Living in this broken body has been absolute torture</3 Money is not a factor here. Shoot, I'd pay whatever if someone could get N, although I know that's virtually impossible these days. Can someone please help guide me since I'm unable to access so many functions at this time. I'm worried if too much time goes by, I won't be able to get it all anymore :(

It's not like we all know some mystic source for guaranteed SN or any other desirable substance, honestly. I have no idea of sources, which is why I've got to consider the common (undesireable) well known ways.

 

[quietwoods]

I'm waiting patiently to not be the newbie here. It sucks! I just want to know how/where to source SN so that I have the peace of knowing I can go when I physically can't take the pain/discomfort anymore. Living in this broken body has been absolute torture</3 Money is not a factor here. Shoot, I'd pay whatever if someone could get N, although I know that's virtually impossible these days. Can someone please help guide me since I'm unable to access so many functions at this time. I'm worried if too much time goes by, I won't be able to get it all anymore :(

I found two different legit sources on my first day without access to any of the special functions.

Admittedly, one of them was partially luck, but I still had to put effort into research. The other one is so obvious I'm still scratching my head as to how people don't know about it.

I'm not trying to be a gatekeeping jerk, but you gotta put the effort into research. The breadcrumbs are there.

 

[polm]

Hi fellow newbie

I was diagnosed with a chronic/debilitating disease a little over a year ago and my life has just deteriorated so quickly </3 I went from being a completely able-bodied, functioning
member of society to having little to no quality of life at all. I'm in my 30s and have the most amazing, loving people in my life…
Honestly, I'd do anything to feel better so I could continue this life by their side, but it seems so incredibly hopeless. Over the last 7 mos. I have tried every available treatment and I just keep getting worse :( There is currently nothing fda approved for what I have..everything is "off label.."
Feeling trapped in your body is agonizing..
It all happened so quickly and I'm struggling to cope. Anyway, I want to be here but I am suffering way too much & the unknown literally terrifies me. I feel like the medical world has completely let me down & so many others too. Your health is literally everything..I wish more people valued it.

Thank you for caring.. I'm here for you too

Me too no treatment after nearly 2 years I'm here. Sorry you are going through this too.

 

[sick&tired]

Me too no treatment after nearly 2 years I'm here. Sorry you are going through this too.

Ugh, I'm sorry..it's the worst. Hugs

Have you seen a naturopath or tried nutrition/supplements for your condition? I'm a holistic nutritionist, I'd be happy to chat if you want.

Thank you so much I've actually seen a functional/holistic doctor for my disease and sadly, nothing has helped. I've been on the AIP diet for 7 months and I'm on so many supplements I've lost count. I appreciate you though!

I found two different legit sources on my first day without access to any of the special functions.

Admittedly, one of them was partially luck, but I still had to put effort into research. The other one is so obvious I'm still scratching my head as to how people don't know about it.

I'm not trying to be a gatekeeping jerk, but you gotta put the effort into research. The breadcrumbs are there.

With all due respect, there are quite a few of us on here who tried our best to research and we were unable to find a source. Maybe I'm just technologically challenged, but since posting there have been several people who offered help, so I'm good now
When you're sick and in pain, it literally takes every ounce of energy to do anything.

Best.

It's not like we all know some mystic source for guaranteed SN or any other desirable substance, honestly. I have no idea of sources, which is why I've got to consider the common (undesireable) well known ways.

My entire existence is undesirable, so if I can help it, I won't go out the same way.

 

[sick&tired]

I'm new too. I agree it's frustrating to finally find a community that understands - to learn that there are way better ways of doing it than you had planned on before finding yourself here - and to not be able to figure out how to obtain it. But I also completely understand why the rules are what they are and why older members are protecting sources. I get it completely.

Just fyi - N is an impossibility now. So if you get random messages or find some online - it is 100% a scam. Scratch that method off your list for sure.

I've been trying really hard to make myself interact more on the forums. I spent so many weeks just reading all the old threads, getting to know members who aren't even here, and in my own little world. And social anxiety stops me too. So I've been trying to become a better participant here. Because as strange as it sounds, this place has saved me. I'm certainly still quite in a bad place - but I'm still alive because of being here.

Knowing so many people understand exactly how I feel, when the people in my real life are so clueless, it's really comforting to be here.

Anyway - can you tell my adhd meds have long worn off lol

Have a great rest of your day - and I hope you soon find the information you seek. In the meantime, get acquainted :)

Thank you so much for your advice and sweet message Also, so glad you're still here. I'm not sure what the future hold for me, but I do just want us all to be okay

 

[SchizoGymnast]

If I come up with anything from my witchcraft book, I'll share it with you guys. I'm not even joking.

 

[tpboy]

i believe the reason they will not share the source is that there no longer is one.

 

[nonameno5]

literally just search up "buy sodium nitrite" or "buy NaNO2" or replace buy with purchase. its so accessible

 

[gottacheckout]

Might want to try nitrite not nitride

 

[sick&tired]

literally just search up "buy sodium nitrite" or "buy NaNO2" or replace buy with purchase. its so accessible

Well I literally couldn't search at all when I posted this. But thanks for the advice

 

[Galahad]

I found two different legit sources on my first day without access to any of the special functions.

Admittedly, one of them was partially luck, but I still had to put effort into research. The other one is so obvious I'm still scratching my head as to how people don't know about it.

I'm not trying to be a gatekeeping jerk, but you gotta put the effort into research. The breadcrumbs are there.

Finding sources isn't difficult. The difficulty is committing to buy then worrying if it'll be picked up and trigger a welfare check from the police.

I've found it in commercially packaged bottles very cheap but won't risk buying it.

 

[quietwoods]

Finding sources isn't difficult. The difficulty is committing to buy then worrying if it'll be picked up and trigger a welfare check from the police.

I've found it in commercially packaged bottles very cheap but won't risk buying it.

Depends on which country you're from. Really not a thing in my country unless you're careless/already on a watchlist.

Well I literally couldn't search at all when I posted this. But thanks for the advice

Internet search not forum search.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

If I come up with anything from my witchcraft book, I'll share it with you guys. I'm not even joking.

Reminds me of one of my previous posts asking if a witch would kill me if I asked her to. The general response was "no", but I'm still hoping. Maybe a witch won't but their book will.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

Reminds me of one of my previous posts asking if a witch would kill me if I asked her to. The general response was "no", but I'm still hoping. Maybe a witch won't but their book will.

I have a book with herbal concoctions in it that are supposed to do just about anything. We'll see.

 

[quietwoods]

I have a book with herbal concoctions in it that are supposed to do just about anything. We'll see.

I'm honestly surprised hemlock isn't talked about more here. Unless I'm missing the posts.

Easily found in the wild and online. Pretty much guaranteed lethal and you can knock yourself out beforehand so you won't experience the side effects. (Hopefully).

Not saying it is a fantastic way to go but seems not that far off from SN and a lot better than some options.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I'm honestly surprised hemlock isn't talked about more here.

Now that you mentioned it, I remember hemlock in old murder mysteries. I looked it up just now and there's no antidote, and it grows all over the place, and seeds are for sale online. This seems too easy. Except... living with other people who have pets kind of ruins it for me. I'll have to think about this... Everything is so complicated.

 

[quietwoods]

Now that you mentioned it, I remember hemlock in old murder mysteries. I looked it up just now and there's no antidote, and it grows all over the place, and seeds are for sale online. This seems too easy. Except... living with other people who have pets kind of ruins it for me. I'll have to think about this... Everything is so complicated.

There's no antidote but it's possible to get someone to the hospital quick enough and put them on a respirator which will save them.

It'll also seriously fuck up your kidneys if you survive, and apparently some forms of it have really nasty side effects, while other species are much better. Not a lot of info.

But it's how the Greeks did it. Was originally looking into hemlock before I found out about this site.