back yet again pt2

[iftheworldwasending]

hi y'all,

I always find my way back here it seems. I never dealt with alcoholism until a few years ago, and I have been on here for a very long time prior. I'm in a hole and I thought NYE would be my fresh start but it didn't seem to be because I'm drinking again. I miss the friends I had on here before. One of them attempted SN and survived, one of them blamed me for their death because I wasn't romantically interested, idk. I had purchased SN twice and never went through with it, hoping things would get better and they never have. idk, hoping maybe I can find friends again. I'm just tired of being here and my first thought being here felt like a sign.

 

[livefastdieyoung]

hey :) im so sorry about what you went through and that sounds really shitty of your 'friend' to try to blame you for their death. im happy to be your friend and talk if you need somebody <3 i hope you start feeling better again and whatever choice you take brings you peave lovely

 

[katara]

Hi, first off I've also had a guy on here be inappropriate with me because I didn't tell him where I live. He had mentioned being married to me in the future and it was confusing because then he was being mean to me and saying my life isn't bad and that he didn't trust me bc I wouldn't tell him where I live.
I also do miss some of the good people who used to be on here, I feel like there's more bad people now. The other day someone was trying to start shit with me saying something about how I deserve to not have friends? I was like what? It might have been someone trolling because the reaction score was low. I just don't understand what make's people think they can virtue signal about how we should be nicer to each other on here, and then be an asshole to someone who's reached out to at least a dozen people on here for companionship and offered support through vc. Nobody on here has ever done that for me! But apparently according to the person I spoke to the other day, that's my own fault.