Autism/ADHD

[AnimeSlayersFan]

Okay, I got diagnosed with autism/adhd, and then when I went to an appointment with someone supposedly specialized in autism for therapy, he just bullshitted me all the way, said that I had a big ego, and suggest stupid shit as "doing lists" for things.
I got really upset and left without paying (he said I didn't have to) I will pocket the money my mom gave me for it for later.
I'm 25 years old and living at home, this interaction made me exhausted af. And made me doubt myself, a lot of people make me feel like dogshit.
I think I don't know how to live my life, how to find my allies, my friends, my place, my hiding spots.
It's fun that I'm struggling with this and not accepting that I'm autistic? Is it just anxiety that other people tell me, or "other things" this guy said "how many years did you go to study psychology, huh? Why are you talking about the concept of ego?" Like a "what do you know bitch? shut up" kinda feeling.

I realize that hey, I'm not "suicidal" but an interaction as small as that one made me feel THAT bad? How will I handle working then? And the rest of life? It feels like too much.
I'm sad dude.

How do I "do life"?

Man this fucking sucks, this guy made me doubt I'm even autistic or not, then I go online and talk to people and everyone says I have it, then I came back here to my uncle's place, im alone for a bit and I'm just calming myself with music because it was "too much"

 

[a-fond-farewell]

soz that happened. it can always be worthwhile to get a second opinion. i've had a really shitty therapist before. i've also had some really great ones. unfortunately, it can be a bit of trial and error until you find the one right for you, but just cause one guy said or thought something doesn't make it true.

ik how horrible doubt can feel. for autism specifically, there are so many online communities. if you're into anything nerdy, just go to the communities for those because the correlation between nerdiness and neurodivergency is HIGH. not saying everything there is autistic, but you'll definitely find a lot more autistic people in a server about math or anime than you will on some random Facebook group about golfing. besides that, there are many, many autistic / neurodivergent communities specifically. Reddit, Discord, etc. but then again, for some people, online support can only go so far and i know how that feels. i wish i had an IRL community to lean on. some IRL friends, etc. etc.

i wish you luck regardless. i hope you're able to find your people one way or another. but yeah, i've gone through how you feel before.