Venting At some point you just have to accept defeat and give up

[KillingPain267]

The shame and pain is too great to bear. There is a reason defeated warriors from China, Japan to Rome and western WW2 captives all had a code of suicide/harakiri when it was clear they had lost the battle and would face torture and/or social shame if they just tried to endure it. Why don't we accept such an idea for people in general? Most of us in here are either social outcasts and/or suffer mental torture because of social or natural circumstances that make living a normal life in normal society unbearable. We have been shown that we don't belong, and are trampled upon. GIVE US METHODS TO DIE ALREADY!

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I agree, I have Autism and Bipolar disorder, and I feel like an outcast. I don't hang around many people, but when I do I just can't fit in or make any friends. My moods are always wonky, and because of my Autism I suffer from a lot of sensory issues. I think life is just not meant for me, there's no direction to take it in for me. We deserve methods to die.

 

[Yume Nikki]

I too consider myself a lost cause.

I never got to have a normal childhood because my mom chose to stay with my violent alcoholic father who abused me and my brother 24/7. He never held a job, or supported us and slept in bed all day drinking booze. I never learned any viable lessons or life skills because he didn't care enough to teach me anything. I was held back twice in middle school due to my terrible upbringing and had failing grades.

Most of my friends abandoned me in middle school, and I was stalked/harassed during my teen years by a terrible group of friends over a fight and couldn't fully escape them until I made new accounts to get away.

I was hospitalized for a suicide attempt back in April and met my ex there. We fell in love and he abused me during our time together and discarded me in November. I want to believe karma will hit him one day but I doubt it will.

My last psychologist was a piece of shit who kept interrupting my sessions that my family paid for to do something else in the background and downplayed the trauma I went through in my childhood, then told me the same half-assed advice everyone has already told me before.

My family is sick of my shit, I've been scolded by my brother over everything just because I was angry my keyboard stopped working properly, and my mom blamed my breakup on the perfume I was wearing.

I am done with life, all I've ever known is abuse, abuse, and abuse. From everyone around me. Even if some troll on a video game told me my life was worthless over some petty argument, I'd believe them.