Are you lonely?

[slowlystarve]

i'm extremely lonely. i'm too scared of people to go out and make friends with them. i don't think i'd have much success even if i had the guts to try. i've never seemed to be able to connect with people, even as a kid. the loneliness feels agonizing most days. are you lonely? if so, how do you cope with it?

 

[ouvreyes]

I'm lonely and just. Don't cope ✌︎

 

[Lra888]

Very lonely. I'm so depressed and anxious I cannot socialize even though i'm desperate to be around people. It's agony some days. My depression makes me crave solitude but at the same time i fucking hate it.

 

[Dead_Inside]

I am lonely. But I never had a hard time getting "friends" , I liked to socialize as a kid and teen .... I liked people... fuck I still do. But they don't understand me really- and that's because I can't let them know me really. No one could like me- my mom doesn't love me so how could anyone else? Right?
So I am lonely. I can't trust people... but I want to.
This place... where everyone just dies is the closest I feel to not being lonely, I feel like maybe I could try to trust people here?
But I would just get fucked over - right? Someone would tell on me.... and I would end up getting forced into a hospital....
but I am lonely.

 

[Xaphous]

Spent my entire life isolated so yes.

 

[LifeSick]

Yes i'm very lonely. I just realized right now that i have lots of conversations with people in my head. Not imaginary people, i just imagine myself talking to people i know and rehearsing what would I say to them if we had a conversation. But then if I try to have a conversation i just become really self conscious and afraid of judgment so I cant really say whats on my mind. So I guess that's sort of a coping mechanism?

 

[Lra888]

Yes i'm very lonely. I just realized right now that i have lots of conversations with people in my head. Not imaginary people, i just imagine myself talking to people i know and rehearsing what would I say to them if we had a conversation. But then if I try to have a conversation i just become really self conscious and afraid of judgment so I cant really say whats on my mind. So I guess that's sort of a coping mechanism?

I do this too. WIth people from the past and current acquaintances. And it's weird because in person i can barely get a word out when im depressed and anxious but I over think everything i should say.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

I'm deeply lonely. I can't even put it into words it's so devastating.

 

[Tesseract]

Yes, I've never had a friend due to social anxiety and aspbergers. Sometimes I get panick attacks and cry for hours because i'm so disgusting that no one wants to touch my body, there's also this weird pain under my chest that feels like my soul is being ripped apart.

 

[divinized]

I'm pretty lonely. I guess in terms of how many people are around me I'm not alone, but I don't feel like I have anyone I can actually talk to.

 

[therhydler]

Yes, I've never had a friend due to social anxiety and aspbergers. Sometimes I get panick attacks and cry for hours because i'm so disgusting that no one wants to touch my body, there's also this weird pain under my chest that feels like my soul is being ripped apart.

that sounds so dreadful I'm really sorry

 

[therhydler]

Theoretically, no... I have family and I have friends... though now I have isolated myself from them inwardly, I wear a constant mask and smile while every cell of my body is screaming in agony. In my head I am completely and utterly alone

 

[Rose Mirren]

Weirdly enough, I have a lot of friends and a lot of people seem to care about me. People say I'm friendly. Whenever I tweet that I'm sad, almost every time, a friend or acquaintance (or even a stranger, sometimes) sends me a DM just to let me know they're there for me. But I haven't replied to those messages recently. I just don't want to burden anyone with my problems, so I keep it all inside. I feel like if I share them, I might affect them negatively. These days, I cry alone everyday and hide my tears. It's weird how even when I'm surrounded with friends, I still feel this deep sadness, like it makes me sad that I can't enjoy their happiness with them.

 

[Help_Me]

Do you guys know how it feels to be lonely even when you have a couple of good faithful friends and a beloved one... This is so painful..

 

[ReadyasEver]

No I'm not, I'm surrounded by family and friends giving words of encouragement. I think it makes it even harder to get clarity.

 

[Eren]

Yes, I really feel alone, I have family (parents, grandparents etc ...) but I practically do not have friends, my social life is almost 0 and I hate it, it has always been difficult for me to relate to others, it is one of the main reasons from my CTB, I hate many facets of myself and this is one of them.

 

[15dec]

I'm lonely. I've got friends and family but they all have more important people in their lives, people they'd rather see, people who are better and kinder and less depressed. I like to talk to new people and meet new people but I'm almost always too tired to and there's no point when I'll ctb soon.

 

[Norest4thewicked]

I'm pretty lonely. I guess in terms of how many people are around me I'm not alone, but I don't feel like I have anyone I can actually talk to.

I know how you feel. Plenty of people around, no one can relate. To me it's being isolated in a crowd. It's fucking horrible

 

[ReadyasEver]

I'm deeply lonely. I can't even put it into words it's so devastating.

I understand buddy, people have a hard time comprehending terminal illness. We are not giving up, we are taking control of the situation and giving the disease the finger.

 

[KitKat]

Always lonely

 

[Fyrinne]

I'm literally never alone, I share my head with 3 other people, and yet I'm always lonely.

Lots of people seem to find it easy to talk to me, I enjoy talking to people, for a while... But I never connect to them... I can never find anyone who wants what I want, and is genuinely interesting to talk to. I'd kill for that, someone open-minded who would be happy to be cheerfully in love in a tiny little apartment just the two of us, whiling away our lives watching shows and movies and play games.

It's all I want in life and yet it seems to be impossible to find.

 

[Vegrau]

Not really. Being with people who dont understand you and keep misunderstood you. Why would I punish myself like that? I would rather be alone.

 

[Sundayafternoon]

Very. I had a crying spell about 3 this morning. I feel like such an anomaly.

I want a friend that a shared glance makes us erupt in laughter. I want a friend i can drink and get high with, while we talk about our disdain for life and plan our exit.

No one gets my humor. No one gets my sadness. No one gets my frustration. No one understands the shame my loneliness brings on.

But, people hurt you, they leave you, they lie, they disrespect you, they always have someone that will come before me.

So, i stay lonely.

 

[Jen Erik]

I feel lonely, but I'm not sure what precisely I am lonely for, what would relieve the loneliness.

 

[Eily]

Yes, I'm definitely lonely. I just "exist". No one actually cares about me. I am very social at work and when I was in school but I go home and I'm alone. I realize I just don't click with anyone.

 

[Bread]

I am extremely lonely. I got debilitatingly ill at 13 and have been bedbound/housebound ever since. I'm 22 now. Even before I got physically ill I was developing depression. All I've ever wanted is to be liked, but as a child no one ever cared about me that much. I never felt connected to any of my "friends". No matter what school I went to I was a perpetual third wheel. I suppose it's just my personality, my fate. Sometimes I think it was for the best interest of society that I got sick since if I'm stuck at home I can't bother anyone with my existence.

 

[Tyuiop]

I am not really lonely, i used to be, but i have realized that i am so introverted that i can at most handle a half hour of conversation before i get tired. What feels bad is that i am not accepted anywhere. I have been rejected from groups because of my depression so i dont hold people in high regard anymore.

 

[Midnight]

I was for about 15 years of my life (I had enough friends and family that was not the problem ... a loving partner was the issue.).. but i crossed some imaginary line somehow. I don't know what happened ... i just gave up. 15+ years of depression and now .. i don't give a shit anymore just let me die already. Fuck this godforsaken hellhole.

2 decades of fighting for a life that i could be happy in .. and for what. What a waste this life has been.

 

[Fyrinne]

I was for about 15 years of my life (I had enough friends and family that was not the problem ... a loving partner was the issue.).. but i crossed some imaginary line somehow. I don't know what happened ... i just gave up. 15+ years of depression and now .. i don't give a shit anymore just let me die already. Fuck this godforsaken hellhole.

2 decades of fighting for a life that i could be happy in .. and for what. What a waste this life has been.

Yeah, I absolutely know that feeling...

Friends and family don't fill that hole. Nothing does, everything is a distraction at best...

People think that there's something wrong with needing someone to fill that space in your life, and I think there's something sad about wanting to be without it.

 

[Eren]

Loneliness is crap, I'm really alone and I know that it's not going to change, because it's part of who I am, I'm a social retard and it's one of the main reasons why I want CTB.