Are you a married parent with young kids but suicidal with a plan?

[inaminute]

As the title says. I know about the guilt trips etc but having a complex history unhappy marriage but young girls who dote on their parent. Make me feel not alone.

I can't leave the marriage because it would destroy the kids and I dont want to impulsively end my life but we all die anyway, right?

I do t want marriage counselling as I'm about to embark on more therapy.

Who else here is like this? Or am I just too far gone and selfish to be thinking of myself?