AOE have deep unsecurity from a speech impediment?

[Ineedtodie]

I' m very unsecure about the way I speak. I feel partly ashamed because of this. It really gives me a lot of anxiety. Its one of the reason why I' m very self conscious. This is humiliating.

 

[jodes2]

I stutter a bit and slur my speech a little bit. People never understand my name first time irl, I hate it. It doesn't help that I have a fucking girl's name, and they're like "wuh? Come again?"

 

[Ineedtodie]

I stutter a bit and slur my speech a little bit. People never understand my name first time irl, I hate it. It doesn't help that I have a fucking girl's name, and they're like "wuh? Come again?"

That sucks. Does it affect you mentally?

I have rhotacism. The only way I can discribe it for me is I feel like there is constantly a huge boulder on my shoulders even when I don't need to talk. A heaviness in my tongue, and a tightness in my guts. It gives me bad Anxiety and huge mental blockage! Its so wierd. Very conscious of it! This is really getting to me a lot. Sometimes, weIl very often I become muted and avoid talking altogether. Speech is most fundamental and basic ability. Finding my self with this issue is so frustrating. I have enaugh on my plate. I sound like a kid. Sorry for ranting. Sometime I want to rant nonstop of how pathetic and wierd my mental blockages are and it's only making me sound childish and spineless.

 

[jodes2]

That sucks. Does it affect you mentally?

I have rhotacism. The only way I can discribe it for me is I feel like there is constantly a huge boulder on my shoulders even when I don't need to talk. A heaviness in my tongue, and a tightness in my guts. It gives me bad Anxiety and huge mental blockage! Its so wierd. Very conscious of it! This is really getting to me a lot. Sometimes, weIl very often I become muted and avoid talking altogether. Speech is most fundamental and basic ability. Finding my self with this issue is so frustrating. I have enaugh on my plate. I sound like a kid. Sorry for ranting. Sometime I want to rant nonstop of how pathetic and wierd my mental blockages are and it's only making me sound childish and spineless.

No no no don't apologise :) rant away my friend, we're here to listen and support.

Yeah it does affect me mentally, my anxiety skyrockets and I just feel unable to communicate. It makes me panic and just want to end the conversation asap. Shit for socialising!

 

[Ineedtodie]

No no no don't apologise :) rant away my friend, we're here to listen and support.

Yeah it does affect me mentally, my anxiety skyrockets and I just feel unable to communicate. It makes me panic and just want to end the conversation asap. Shit for socialising!

Thank you.

That's exactly how it makes me feel. The exact pattern. And feeling like an alien for being this way when people around you have no such restrain.