Story Anyone in their 40s here?

[Caleb82]

My first post here. I am 42. I feel like I am the oldest member here. I don't think there is anything wrong with it but I can't help but feel extra shitty because I feel like, by having lived this long, I have contributed well enough the misery of every 25 yo or younger person here. I am biding my time to ctb. I am just sorry I lasted this long.

 

[Dot]

Am nt goin2 pst hw old slf am bt thre r mny 40 /50 / 60+ membrs

 

[Caleb82]

Thanks for the reply. Somehow, that really is comforting to know. I don't know why it matters, but it does.

 

[KillingPain267]

My first post here. I am 42. I feel like I am the oldest member here. I don't think there is anything wrong with it but I can't help but feel extra shitty because I feel like, by having lived this long, I have contributed well enough the misery of every 25 yo or younger person here. I am biding my time to ctb. I am just sorry I lasted this long.

I'm not yet in my 40s, but don't worry. I have seen many members here who say they are in their 50s and even some in their 70s. You are far from the oldest here. I welcome you to the site, although I joined only a few days bedore you, haha.

 

[Esokabat]

I think many that are 50+ are in the Exit forum as you have to be 50+ join that one with ID verification.
I think I would fit in there better as I am pretty sure there are more people there like me, not depressed, happy with life, not a victim , not blaming parents, world, being born, humanity, and whatever people like to blame for their life here, and going to CTB due to physical limitations/ disease (although my autism certainly also plays a major role)
Although I also met a lot of love, kindness and humanity in this forum also. Without question.
People who read this from the outside world will probably think, what? humanity, love, kindness, caring, on a suicide forum??
but once you are here, you will find and see the love. People who have nothing to gain by being kind, gentle, understanding to you because they will not even be here the next day, and yet, the kindness dominates. Probably not due to my own participation as I am not the kindest person, but you can definitely feel it here.

 

[mtnbeing]

Hi, I am in my forties, if that information is helpful to hear. I've had chronic SI my whole life, and it's hard to find people my age IRL that openly talk about such things or even acknowledge it. So, this space is super helpful for connection. I'm glad you're here. ;)

 

[Dot]

@carac @Myforevercharlie @Linda

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yep, I'm 44. There are some older members here. Seems like the older the age groups, the fewer there are... Someone made a poll the other day:

How Old Are You?ð§

Okay I know I have some aging issues; both reasonable and possibly not so rational... But yall are making me feel old af, so... "How old are you???"ð¤ð¤¨ð *I must know!ð¤¯

sanctioned-suicide.net

There are likely more polls on here too. You'll be able to search for them when you have more posts.

 

[Esokabat]

Hi, I am in my forties, if that information is helpful to hear. I've had chronic SI my whole life, and it's hard to find people my age IRL that openly talk about such things or even acknowledge it. So, this space is super helpful for connection. I'm glad you're here. ;)

I don't think you are using the word SI based on the forum's terminology but it could still be understood.
But a bit annoying when the same acronym is used for completely opposite things. And the way you use it is not as the forum has defined it if you look up the official terminologies recommended for the forum.
It is like wanting to use CTB for both the meaning of wanting to die and wanting to live.
The way you use SI is the same, as it means the opposite on this forum.
SI = Survival Instinct here but clearly that is not what you went for.

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

My first post here. I am 42. I feel like I am the oldest member here. I don't think there is anything wrong with it but I can't help but feel extra shitty because I feel like, by having lived this long, I have contributed well enough the misery of every 25 yo or younger person here. I am biding my time to ctb. I am just sorry I lasted this long.

Welcome. You're not alone. I'm 46.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I'm not in my 40s but I've been on the forum for a bit, and I can say I've met a lot of older people on here as well.

 

[mtnbeing]

I don't think you are using the word SI based on the forum's terminology but it could still be understood.
But a bit annoying when the same acronym is used for completely opposite things. And the way you use it is not as the forum has defined it if you look up the official terminologies recommended for the forum.
It is like wanting to use CTB for both the meaning of wanting to die and wanting to live.
The way you use SI is the same, as it means the opposite on this forum.
SI = Survival Instinct here but clearly that is not what you went for.

Thanks for this -- coming out of therapy world, for sure. Will be more mindful in the future of my language use.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Oldest person here is, as far as I know in their 70's.
I'm 48

 

[carac]

Yes I am 47, been up and down ever since the age of about 14 when I made my first attempt

 

[tone]

I'm 40-years-old. You're not alone here.

 

[Caleb82]

Thank you all for your kind replies. It helps to know that I am not an odd one. It is just so surprising how we sometimes find kindness in the a place we least expect it.

 

[Rev346]

My first post here. I am 42. I feel like I am the oldest member here. I don't think there is anything wrong with it but I can't help but feel extra shitty because I feel like, by having lived this long, I have contributed well enough the misery of every 25 yo or younger person here. I am biding my time to ctb. I am just sorry I lasted this long.

I Just turned 42 a few months ago. As others have said, welcome and were around. I'm usually not much of a poster but visit most days and sometimes chime in once a week or so if I have knowledge I can share.

 

[Catch-22]

I think many that are 50+ are in the Exit forum as you have to be 50+ join that one with ID verification.
I think I would fit in there better as I am pretty sure there are more people there like me, not depressed, happy with life, not a victim , not blaming parents, world, being born, humanity, and whatever people like to blame for their life here, and going to CTB due to physical limitations/ disease (although my autism certainly also plays a major role)
Although I also met a lot of love, kindness and humanity in this forum also. Without question.
People who read this from the outside world will probably think, what? humanity, love, kindness, caring, on a suicide forum??
but once you are here, you will find and see the love. People who have nothing to gain by being kind, gentle, understanding to you because they will not even be here the next day, and yet, the kindness dominates. Probably not due to my own participation as I am not the kindest person, but you can definitely feel it here.

I appreciate you mentioning that there is an exit forum. Could you please show me where it is at because I can't find it. Thank you!

 

[Linda]

My first post here. I am 42. I feel like I am the oldest member here. I don't think there is anything wrong with it but I can't help but feel extra shitty because I feel like, by having lived this long, I have contributed well enough the misery of every 25 yo or younger person here. I am biding my time to ctb. I am just sorry I lasted this long.

I wish I was 42 again. I'm 71.

 

[itwillpass]

Nearly 46. About 25 years since my first official input on my medical records that I'm suicidal/depressed/not right in the head.

 

[awaitingdeath]

42 here. I was shocked to see that most of the forum members are teens or in their 20s. I was expecting more senior people. There should be a separate SaSu portal for 40+.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm also in the 40s club.

I appreciate you mentioning that there is an exit forum. Could you please show me where it is at because I can't find it. Thank you!

They refer to the organisation "Exit International". You have to be 50+ to be eligible to apply.

 

[Green_leaf]

42 here. I was shocked to see that most of the forum members are teens or in their 20s. I was expecting more senior people. There should be a separate SaSu portal for 40+.

Got exactly the same impression by the time I joined. Same age as well by the way.

 

[Dot]

42 here. I was shocked to see that most of the forum members are teens or in their 20s. I was expecting more senior people. There should be a separate SaSu portal for 40+.

Thre = 40+ chat rm

If thre = enuf intrst am sre tht a 40+ peer spport thred cld b mde fr 'oldr' membrs t/ cme 2gthr

 

[Esokabat]

I appreciate you mentioning that there is an exit forum. Could you please show me where it is at because I can't find it. Thank you!

You can find it from the Exit International website

 

[Catch-22]

You can find it from the Exit International website

I thought the forum was on SaSu. I mentioned the website to someone who I thought would be interested and they told me the average age on there was around 75 years old. And then they got mad at me thank you though!

 

[Esokabat]

I thought the forum was on SaSu. I mentioned the website to someone who I thought would be interested and they told me the average age on there was around 75 years old. And then they got mad at me thank you though!

You have very sensitive friends

 

[b_adr]

35 here. First (and only) attempt at 14. Been thinking about how to do it safely (effectively) ever since. Last 7-8 months have been something else. I have not experienced such a low for many years.

 

[Coffeandamug]

I am 28, I entered the forum when I was 23-ish and man... it is so hard to keep being consistent at ctb... I wish I understood myself and life deeper to truly solve this once and for all but that is not the case. Life is so complex and our human feelings and emotions so unpredictable. I woudn't be surprised if I was here at 40 or more too. Planning to ctbing again, let's see where this one will lead me.

 

[JFED]

45 here. You're not alone @Caleb82