anyone else totally lost and directionless?

[babydeer]

I'm a college dropout in my mid-20's with no idea what I want or who I am. I've seen dozens of career counselors and therapists and I still don't know, and I'm broke and living at home and miserable, and worst of all, I have no idea why I don't know what I want...

 

[demuic]

I'm a college dropout in my mid-20's with no idea what I want or who I am. I've seen dozens of career counselors and therapists and I still don't know, and I'm broke and living at home and miserable, and worst of all, I have no idea why I don't know what I want...

I completely relate. I've not dropped out yet but it may go that way as I'm supposed to go back in the fall. I've got nothing I'm both passionate and good at. I don't want to be a corporate slave for the rest of my life but there are few options in this world. No one wanted to help me because college isn't actually a place of learning but a corporation bent on making money (in the US). I lost the will to go through the motions once I realized what a sham it is.

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

I'm going to finish high school this year and I don't know what to do after that. I don't want to study neither work. I will probably become a NEET. I have no motivation to do anything. Everything is so pointless. I can't see any reasons to stay alive.

 

[babydeer]

I completely relate. I've not dropped out yet but it may go that way as I'm supposed to go back in the fall. I've got nothing I'm both passionate and good at. I don't want to be a corporate slave for the rest of my life but there are few options in this world. No one wanted to help me because college isn't actually a place of learning but a corporation bent on making money (in the US). I lost the will to go through the motions once I realized what a sham it is.

Same here, I guess if I don't have the guts to ctb I'll end up in exactly what I'm so afraid of - a miserable, corporate 9-5 life. I'm in the US too and you're totally right about college. I really like learning, it just crushed me when I realized I was just headed toward that 9-5 life like everyone else...now everything bums me out. Every day my parents and friends come home from their 9-5s but no one wants to admit that it's miserable and I want to scream because they tell me that's just how it is, and I need to hurry up and get a 9-5 of my own...

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

I've never had direction or purpose in my life, and have spent my life feeling lost and thrashing around for meaning and purpose...all for nothing. I wonder a lot if my health wouldn't have nosedived at 25/26 if I'd have eventually found my way but probably not. I was a college dropout and then lived at home until 27 when I moved in with my then-boyfriend, now husband so I never actually lived on my own, or like an adult who made their own decisions and had that freedom (or as much freedom as one ever can have considering, like you, I'd have just ended up in a 9-5 slave job - not a CAREER, mind you...just a job to get a paycheck. That would have crushed me down even further.)

Life is shit. Either you're too sick in body and/or mind to work and be independent, or (most of us) end up in unfulfilling jobs that serve only to bring in the money to pay the bills and maybe a little extra if we're lucky. I envy those people who work at careers and jobs they love and who are healthy - it seems so foreign to me, like they've won the lottery of life.

 

[WornOutLife]

I got totally lost at life in my 30s and just this year was able to have a normal life again. (33)
If I could do it, I bet you can too.

Just try to start with small things and then go for better things.
I quit university 2 times and still, got my degree somehow.

It ain't over until it's over.

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

I dropped out of university before the third year that was when my MH got really bad, what a waste.