anyone else planned to use SN for their method but now they can’t get any?

[failedmind]

i planned to buy SN when i first joined this forum in october 2024 but i was living with family at the time and was going to buy it when i lived alone. now that i live alone, i cant find sn anywhere (im in the us). the ones i might find, they only ship to businesses or labs. i feel stuck because now i have to find another method. im going between hanging and a gun, two methods i really didnt want to consider.

anyone else?

 

[Carryline]

Yes I have orderet SN like 6 times but it was always canceled and i am desperate already, like what does it have to be so hard to die, i wish I can just order something.. i find only one webside that does not require any bussiness/school/lab but they are on holiday now and will send the packing on 19.01. so I still have to wait it is almost a mont I hope I did not get scammed... then I find one more side but they do do send abrod and one more side but they are out of stock... to I guess I can just dowloand Tor and try mi like there... or I do not know..

 

[woodlandcreature]

omg yes! (i'm sure this is a pretty common experience at this point in time) i'm between hanging and jumping now, as i have no access to guns (that'd be my first choice ngl)

 

[failedmind]

Yes I have orderet SN like 6 times but it was always canceled and i am desperate already, like what does it have to be so hard to die, i wish I can just order something.. i find only one webside that does not require any bussiness/school/lab but they are on holiday now and will send the packing on 19.01. so I still have to wait it is almost a mont I hope I did not get scammed... then I find one more side but they do do send abrod and one more side but they are out of stock... to I guess I can just dowloand Tor and try mi like there... or I do not know..

ugh i feel your pain. its been hard to find anything reliable. i wish you the best

omg yes! (i'm sure this is a pretty common experience at this point in time) i'm between hanging and jumping now, as i have no access to guns (that'd be my first choice ngl)

ive also considered jumping but its a really scary thought, all of it is. i wish you the best !

 

[mybodyhurts]

Also in the US. SN was always going to be my plan, but I wasn't ready until this year. I was so desperate I even tried to use my work credentials (I work for a medical school) and now I'm worried the lab I tried to order it from will report me to my employer. It feels so unfair.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I'm considering SN as my plan B, I was chatting with someone who bought some without any issues, I'm not 100% sure I trust the site though, but my plan A is nitrogen + exit bag.

 

[xanni05]

i planned to buy SN when i first joined this forum in october 2024 but i was living with family at the time and was going to buy it when i lived alone. now that i live alone, i cant find sn anywhere (im in the us). the ones i might find, they only ship to businesses or labs. i feel stuck because now i have to find another method. im going between hanging and a gun, two methods i really didnt want to consider.

anyone else?

this might be a stupid question but what is sn?:)

 

[somi.c]

I ordered it once but when my sister found it and showed it to my family they threw it down the drain and now they monitor my purchases

 

[failedmind]

this might be a stupid question but what is sn?:)

no worries! its sodium nitrite

 

[MiMif]

If anyone finds a source in north america please pm me

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

I found a reliable source through people who use it for a unique hobby. Problem is their stock is limited and people from this community buy it up for their creations whenever it's restocked. I do plan to jump but it would be nice to have a second method to ensure I depart. SN sounds so promising but even if it was in stock, I don't have a proper address and would have to ship it to my family member which would tip them off. Apparently you can make it, but that seems pretty intimidating and I haven't looked into it further

 

[Wingblade]

Looking for a reliable source within US as well, very unfortunate timing as someone else who's also spent the rest of the year getting ready to leave but only now decided to go shopping for supplies

 

[Bat12]

I found a reliable source through people who use it for a unique hobby. Problem is their stock is limited and people from this community buy it up for their creations whenever it's restocked. I do plan to jump but it would be nice to have a second method to ensure I depart. SN sounds so promising but even if it was in stock, I don't have a proper address and would have to ship it to my family member which would tip them off. Apparently you can make it, but that seems pretty intimidating and I haven't looked into it further

What is this unique hobby. As far as I was aware it would be silly to use it for anything other than meat curing.

 

[DontTouchMeImFamous]

I guess I can just dowloand Tor and try mi like there...

What is "mi"?

 

[Realog11]

Yes I have orderet SN like 6 times but it was always canceled and i am desperate already, like what does it have to be so hard to die, i wish I can just order something.. i find only one webside that does not require any bussiness/school/lab but they are on holiday now and will send the packing on 19.01. so I still have to wait it is almost a mont I hope I did not get scammed... then I find one more side but they do do send abrod and one more side but they are out of stock... to I guess I can just dowloand Tor and try mi like there... or I do not know..

I have a source that delivers international

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

What is this unique hobby. As far as I was aware it would be silly to use it for anything other than meat curing.

It is a silly hobby, making explosives. That's likely a big reason why tighter regulations are being pushed, not just because people use it to CTB. It's dangerous all the way around

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I just ordered some last night to have as my plan B or C, but I'm not 100% certain I should trust the website I ordered from, and I'll have no way to get antiemics unless they can be found online somewhere, so it's probably just a waste .

 

[Realog11]

I just ordered some last night to have as my plan B or C, but I'm not 100% certain I should trust the website I ordered from, and I'll have no way to get antiemics unless they can be found online somewhere, so it's probably just a waste .

What's your method of doing ctb

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

What's your method of doing ctb

Nitrogen.

 

[maylurker]

Nitrogen.

may i ask if you know is it superior than carbon monooxide?

 

[darksouls2kicksass]

if it's any consolation, I got SN from DMC back in March and I'm still alive. I prepared half of it (50g) for an attempt that I pussied out from... I still have the remaining 50g but I'm also still a humongous pussy. I need to die very soon for a number of reasons, but I don't have benzos/antiemetics/etc, so I feel just as lost with the poison in hand ://

I wish there were simply an off switch

 

[Realog11]

if it's any consolation, I got SN from DMC back in March and I'm still alive. I prepared half of it (50g) for an attempt that I pussied out from... I still have the remaining 50g but I'm also still a humongous pussy. I need to die very soon for a number of reasons, but I don't have benzos/antiemetics/etc, so I feel just as lost with the poison in hand ://

I wish there were simply an off switch

I'm just gonna take sn by it self or with Olanzapine

 

[name2come]

I was dimly aware of the method, but like you when it came time to start thinking about serious planning, I feel like I missed my opportunity. That said, I am wondering how hard it is to set up a "business address" with a PO Box at something like the UPS Store. I haven't seen much discussion about that, but I imagine not everyone has the means or opportunity to do that. Even if I had it, I don't have a firm plan to procure the other stuff like antiemetics, so its feeling a bit out of touch for a few reasons. I'm trying to think seriously about partial hanging as a fallback option. I'm so much more scared of failing than succeeding at this point. I'm jealous of the people who once had access to stuff like N.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

may i ask if you know is it superior than carbon monooxide?

They each have their own advantages and drawbacks.

 

[auntdot765]

I bought SN back in late 2022 and in March 2023, I attempted to CTB, but because I did not have the other medicine, my heart started racing and I called 911. When i got home, i threw away the rest of the SN. Worst mistake of my life to throw it away because now, i cannot buy it from the same site nor can i find it anywhere else. I'm in USA

 

[xanni05]

thank u so much! is it painful to die to?:)

 

[lukewarmlemon4de]

i planned to buy SN when i first joined this forum in october 2024 but i was living with family at the time and was going to buy it when i lived alone. now that i live alone, i cant find sn anywhere (im in the us). the ones i might find, they only ship to businesses or labs. i feel stuck because now i have to find another method. im going between hanging and a gun, two methods i really didnt want to consider.

anyone else?

in the uk, i'm not bothered to try to get any. hanging would probably be easier lmao (or jumping if i find the right place)

 

[Bat12]

in the uk, i'm not bothered to try to get any. hanging would probably be easier lmao (or jumping if i find the right place)

Deliver it to a shared address , not in your name, like a mail room, or university hall or something. Seems to be the way to avoid welfare checks.

 

[nitrogenous]

I have a source that delivers international

Would you be willing by any chance to share the source with me through DMs?

I'm considering SN as my plan B, I was chatting with someone who bought some without any issues, I'm not 100% sure I trust the site though, but my plan A is nitrogen + exit bag.

I'm on the exact same boat. I've been thinking of nitrogen (but probably with a scuba mask instead, still unsure) but SN lately has became much more appealing due to its practicality. In saying so though, I haven't gotten access to any. I'm still trying to figure out which one has a higher success rate with the least pain possible (as well as thinking if it failed, which one wouldn't make me live in suffering).