Discussion anyone else not give a shit about dying anymore? [discussion/vent]

[happy2die]

I used to be sentimental about death n shit but not I AM SOOO FUCKING HAPPY like I can finally live life without stress like this is the most carefree and happy I've felt in soooo long. (lowk turns into a vent here can you tell I have ADHD?) This might not be nice idk but when I think about other people that committed suicide I don't even feel sad I feel happy for them because imagine how freeing TS was for them?? a lot of non suicidal people assume that people "regret" their decisions right before dying man FUCK that I'm feeling so good right now. I don't even want to write sentimental suicide notes to everyone anymore I just wanna write about the reasons why I want this torture to end and be done with it. dont even hold a funeral for me just forget me I AM DONE!!! I don't even know why I feel so free because I only have like 50% of the work I need to do to execute my plan done. this isn't even my first attempt either I've literally attempted so many times but I think this is is the first time I'm 100000% sure that I'm out instead of going back and forth and having some back up plan

 

[glowing.purple.aura]

This might not be nice idk but when I think about other people that committed suicide I don't even feel sad I feel happy for them because imagine how freeing TS was for them??

I'm always so incredibly grateful that their suffering is finally over. Life doesn't get better for everyone and knowing that they are now at peace is much more comforting than knowing they're alive and can't escape. I still do feel awful of course, because of what they must have been going through and because I'm reminded of how awful life can be to innocent souls.