Anyone else been raped?

[JJ-NOHOPE]

i can only post this kind of stuff when I'm drunk.

I am 54. Was raped when I was 12 and only even admitting to myself this happened just now.

I feel ashamed, defiled and dirty. I feel like it was my fault even though my therapist tells me I was a child. I don't believe her.

This has had profound implications on my life.

How does anyone ever get over this type of shit? Is ctb the only real escape from this living hell?

 

[Philip]

I am so sorry for your pain.....

 

[Johnnythefox]

There are several users here who have experienced rape, so you are not alone on here.
I'm sorry this has happened to you.

 

[Retched]

I'm so sorry to hear this. Rape is an ugly ugly experience.

 

[Hunter]

I'm glad you are getting it out here and like others have said, there are users here who have experienced sexual trauma. I know words are hollow but you're not alone in this. This isn't your fault or doing and you deserved to be protected.

 

[Hunter]

Anyone have insight as to why shame and self hate is so common as a response to rape rather than rage at the attacker? It kills me anytime I see innocent people hate themselves, say they are worthless or to blame etc and it seems so hard to convince them otherwise. So much is wrong in the world....

What makes you think rage isn't also part of the equation? And yes, it's heartbreaking to see this so often of people here.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

All I know is if you were my daughter or sister, I'd have killed the bastard before taking myself out.

 

[OkTotti]

If some one sees a attractive person and they're scum bags they get horny at rape. Try not feel bad because sex is natural.

wtf?