L.D.50
Member
- Oct 13, 2025
- 17
i was just curious if anyone else here was a diabetic and sometimes thought about using their supplies to ctb. like taking all of your insulin at once, not treating a bad low, or just stop taking care of it all together.
a lot of the time i wake up throughout the night with bad lows. often I'll just lay there in a cold sweat disoriented and feel the crushing heaviness in my chest and hold myself in a fetal position while shivering and feel the energy leaving my body, hoping I'll fall back asleep never having to wake up again. sometimes I'll even go in and out of consciousness and its become a game to me at this point to see how long i can push it. its weirdly comforting knowing I've been a step in and out deaths door.
I'm just waiting for the day i have a seizure and choke to death in my sleep.
a lot of the time i wake up throughout the night with bad lows. often I'll just lay there in a cold sweat disoriented and feel the crushing heaviness in my chest and hold myself in a fetal position while shivering and feel the energy leaving my body, hoping I'll fall back asleep never having to wake up again. sometimes I'll even go in and out of consciousness and its become a game to me at this point to see how long i can push it. its weirdly comforting knowing I've been a step in and out deaths door.
I'm just waiting for the day i have a seizure and choke to death in my sleep.
