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Sinbad

Sinbad

Self-Annihilation is loading...95%
Nov 27, 2018
543
I have been watching MrCaringguy's videos for a while now. Most of his videos show a list of people who recently committed suicide. I enjoy these videos. I take comfort in knowing that I am not the only one committing suicide. I know around a million souls commit suicide every year but who are they? To me, it is just a number without meaning. But in these videos, I actually get to see the people who CTB. Am I making sense?


 
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Hopeless_soul

Hopeless_soul

Soon
Jan 3, 2019
502
Did they give consent to appear in a public video before they ctb?
 
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Sinbad

Sinbad

Self-Annihilation is loading...95%
Nov 27, 2018
543
Did they give consent to appear in a public video before they ctb?
Anything you post online is permanent and public. But ask the owner of the video the same question maybe he has a better answer.
 
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sif

sif

You deserve love
Dec 28, 2018
373
I have been watching MrCaringguy's videos for a while now. Most of his videos show a list of people who recently committed suicide. I enjoy these videos. I take comfort in knowing that I am not the only one committing suicide. I know around a million souls commit suicide every year but who are they? To me, it is just a number without meaning. But in these videos, I actually get to see the people who CTB. Am I making sense?



Incredibly sad. I think someone's explicit wishes should be admired say if they decide they don't want a big fuss when they die. but if there are no explicit wishes then what sinbad says makes sense.
 
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suffering

suffering

Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
Aug 17, 2018
398
I look at them and I wonder.. How did they do it? What do they have that I don't? Why was it possible for them while it feels impossible for me? Was their circumstance way worse than mine? Am I a natural born coward?
 
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21Neberg

21Neberg

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2018
1,624
I look at them and I wonder.. How did they do it? What do they have that I don't? Why was it possible for them while it feels impossible for me? Was their circumstance way worse than mine? Am I a natural born coward?

You're not a coward. Nearly all of us will fail our first attempt, and maybe even our second. CTB simply isnt as easy as we'd like it to be.

I'd like to know how they did it as well.
 
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Philip

Specialist
Oct 23, 2018
319
So very sad.......I wish them all the peace they deserve
 
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Circles

Visionary
Sep 3, 2018
2,297
I look at them and I wonder.. How did they do it? What do they have that I don't? Why was it possible for them while it feels impossible for me? Was their circumstance way worse than mine? Am I a natural born coward?
This. I always wonder how they got their brains to spark the will to finally doing it. Like what is the secret? Just pure desperation? I wholeheartedly wish to understand and I envy their courage.
 
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johnny

johnny

Experienced
Dec 5, 2018
255
Interesting, had never seen these before. Reminds me of the "faces of suicide" website.

Unfortunately, I think stuff like this just serves as fuel for pro lifers instead of having the choice to die be respected.
 
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Lifeisatrap

Arcanist
Oct 5, 2018
408
Slaves who managed to break free, how I envy them.
 
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Donewith_

Elementalist
Sep 28, 2018
876
I have been watching MrCaringguy's videos for a while now. Most of his videos show a list of people who recently committed suicide. I enjoy these videos. I take comfort in knowing that I am not the only one committing suicide. I know around a million souls commit suicide every year but who are they? To me, it is just a number without meaning. But in these videos, I actually get to see the people who CTB. Am I making sense?




What a fucked up world this is. Such young kids taking their own lives. They must have been through so much trauma , that a slight problem would have pushed them over the edge.
 
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goxua

goxua

Student
Jan 28, 2019
180
Thank you for sharing, Sinbad. I've never seen these videos but I find them comforting also.

Annaliese Braakensiek, who is in one video, was a long-term girlfriend of one of my friends. I hope she along with everybody else, has found her peace.
 
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