Another slap in the face

[DanielDanDean]

Today was supposed to be one of those better days where my abuser is at work, I go buy a beer and chill.

Everything looked fine until I recognized that car.

My ex's car.

After overtaking her vehicle I was able to match the car, the woman, the guy she cheated on me with.

It was 5 years ago and here I am, the same burning hole in my chest, just able to park the car and cry silently
She moved away from our city and here they are.
Holidays? Moving ? Idk but another slap in the face was not necessary

She knew everything about me, I trusted her and she added another injury to the long list of shit happening to me by cheating and leaving me alone during quarantaine to go and cheat with a guy

She looks happy, I'm more miserable now than ever and the universe shoved it in my face
I have no shoulder to cry on

I will not drink today, nor will I CTB

I'll just be miserable because that is what life wanted for me
A long life of suffering

PS : I don't know if it is suicide related, the only think I know is that if I die she'll be the person who made me gain and lose all hope