Am I the only one who does not want to write a suicide note at all?

[Person27]

So many people seem to want to write notes, even editing them several times, really thinking about what they write, and to whom, and how people will find it.

I don't want to write a note. I have nothing to say. For all I know, my reality (and thus all of reality I will ever know) ends with me. I don't want to think about what my family will think when I'm dead, I don't want to think about how my corpse would look like or how they would react when discovering it. Writing a suicide note would mean really facing those things, and I'd prefer to just die, simply die without a care in the world.

Besides, I wouldn't even know what to write at all. Am I the only one?

 

[czzod]

no your feelings are totally valid. i myself have played with the idea of not writing one too because when i go to write everything down it makes me panic and shut down. facing those ideas can be scary and when deciding on something like this it's your decision anyways.

 

[Blue Dream]

No, I wouldn't write a note either. I know I'll likely hurt people and I don't see a note magically dispelling that. If anything it could easily haunt them.

 

[VVL]

No, I also don't know what to write. There are a lot of things that I'd like to clear up but I just can't bring myself to write anything down, everytime I try to do it my mind just goes blank. I wrote some stuff when I was drunk a couple of weeks ago and now I can't help but cringe whenever I read it.

 

[citrusfruit]

I want the people in my life to reflect on the actions they've taken that resulted in my suicide. I want them to spend years thinking about what they did, what they could have done better, and why did I do it. Leaving them a note telling them exactly why I did it doesnt feel as good to me

 

[over2025]

I don't want people to suffer from not knowing why I did it. I would write that they could not have done anything to stop me.

Not having closure is pure torture for anyone who loved you.

 

[newlifeimmigration]

I feel the exact same way . I force myself not to think about what the aftermath of my death would be like because the entire point of killing myself is to remove myself from having to think about anything like that. Sometimes I can't help myself from thinking about what the reaction to my death would be, but I try to steer myself away from it. There are a lot of ways to get a reaction out of somebody without killing myself, and if I'm dead I won't even be there to see it. So there's no point in communicating anything at all. If I wrote anything I would want to stay alive to see what happens, but I already know that everything i try to do just ends up in more pain. I think some people write notes to help themselves prepare to ctb and to make peace with death but personally I would get too worked up over it. I'm planning to ctb to end my pain solely for me and not for revenge and not for anybody else. And with people online they might not even realize that I'm dead if I don't write a note, so I can bring less pain into the world if I don't say anything

 

[anagram]

It's not worth it because words aren't enough to capture my suffering. If i ever did leave one note though, it would definitely be a one liner or a quote.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

No, you are not alone in thinking like this.
In the end I wanted to write a note full of explanations but I think it will just fuck up the family so I'm not going to write anything at all and let them imagine what they want, it's already more or less the case anyway.

 

[FinalVoid25]

I will post here a few minutes before I do it, but thats it.

 

[dontwakemeup]

It's not worth it because words aren't enough to capture my suffering. If i ever did leave one note though, it would definitely be a one liner or a quote.

I love your signature Suicide: Permanent solution to permanent problems
I had to lol because they use that slogan all over and as a means to stop us. Your signature is exactly what is should say-the truth
I would never leave a note. I've said mostly everything I needed to say, and those who have wronged me don't need to see it in a note, they know. If you wasn't part of my life during my last days then I certainly won't take the time to address you in my last moments of peace and happiness. I don't care who finds me, I don't care if they give me a funeral. I don't focus on the after effects because I've suffered so long, I simply don't care. They can figure it out and put the pieces together when I'm gone but I won't help them.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I also don't want to write a suicide note as it's just more effort and I'd rather be spending all of my energy on the attempt itself. Also, my family wouldn't understand me anyways as their religious beliefs prevents them from being able to understand me. Nonetheless, if I were to ctb, I think I would write a suicide note along with a video of me attached to it so that the authorities leave my case as quickly as possible since these anti suicide people are so myopic to where the thought of somebody killing themselves on their own volition is a thought they would never have.

 

[anagram]

I love your signature Suicide: Permanent solution to permanent problems
I had to lol because they use that slogan all over and as a means to stop us. Your signature is exactly what is should say-the truth
I would never leave a note. I've said mostly everything I needed to say, and those who have wronged me don't need to see it in a note, they know. If you wasn't part of my life during my last days then I certainly won't take the time to address you in my last moments of peace and happiness. I don't care who finds me, I don't care if they give me a funeral. I don't focus on the after effects because I've suffered so long, I simply don't care. They can figure it out and put the pieces together when I'm gone but I won't help them.

Thanks Exactly this. I don't owe them an explanation. It's not like they will listen to me anyway without corrupting/twisting my words. People are very ignorant. Silence is blissful when dealing with ignorants. My action of suicide will speak for itself.