Am I selfish?

[phoenixx]

Am I a selfish/bad/horrible person for wanting to ctb? I feel like thats what everyone will think of me when I eventually do it.. but this life isn't for me. As much as I love my family, I can't spend the rest of my life in this fucking body. I cant keep battling all these thoughts and demons every day. I just need peace.

 

[Psilo]

Its called being kind to yourself as someone else on this forum said.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Depends on your situation. Do you have children? Are others very dependant on you like a elderly person that you have to take care of? If not then I won't think it would be selfish.

 

[phoenixx]

Depends on your situation. Do you have children? Are others very dependant on you like a elderly person that you have to take care of? If not then I won't think it would be selfish.

I dont have any children and no one relies on me..

 

[Chalken]

You're not selfish. The ones being selfish are those who keep others from killing themselves just so they wouldn't get hurt.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I dont have any children and no one relies on me..

Have you given life an honest try?

 

[phoenixx]

Have you given life an honest try?

I have, yes but I've been plagued by mental illness for 9+ years and have been struggling with other things too. I just dont want to fight any longer

 

[GeorgeJL]

I have, yes but I've been plagued by mental illness for 9+ years and have been struggling with other things too. I just dont want to fight any longer

It seems like you have a ligitamate case for suicide without it being selfish but I don't know everything about you.

 

[phoenixx]

It seems like you have a ligitamate case for suicide without it being selfish but I don't know everything about you.

I'm 22. I haven't had any friends since i dropped out of high school at 15. I barley go out, have no social life or anything. I wont ever be able to get a full time job/career because I wouldnt be able to cope. Dont think I'll ever be able to move out alone because of my mental health (wouldn't be able to afford it without a job anyway). I cut/self harm pretty much everday. I wont ever be able to live normally. I'm never going to be normal or be able to cope with life properly. So theres no point in being alive, I'm just a big mess and I want to be at peace..