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ostinat

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Mar 14, 2026
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i'm a recovering alcoholic that doesn't go to therapy or AA or anything like that, and it's a strugle.

goeing day to day is hard. i think about whiskey 24/7 and i just want to drink all the time. even with my girlfriend.

i feel lonely and empty when i'm not intoxicated, no matter what. who can relate?
 
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i'm a recovering alcoholic that doesn't go to therapy or AA or anything like that, and it's a strugle.

goeing day to day is hard. i think about whiskey 24/7 and i just want to drink all the time. even with my girlfriend.

i feel lonely and empty when i'm not intoxicated, no matter what. who can relate?
alcohol just helps me feel like a normal person again, I don't drink everyday but it's the only thing that helps me not caring about my problems for a while.
It's a good sign that you try to recover by yourself but you need a substitute for alcohol at this point.
 
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ostinat

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alcohol just helps me feel like a normal person again, I don't drink everyday but it's the only thing that helps me not caring about my problems for a while.
It's a good sign that you try to recover by yourself but you need a substitute for alcohol at this point.
¨my gf sugjestes that i go to a doctor and get anti-depressants or something simular. but i hate the idea of getting help. would rather ctb tbh. i smoke weed sometimes when times are really hard, just to hope it nummes some of my feelings, but it never does. maybe xans would help?
 
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¨my gf sugjestes that i go to a doctor and get anti-depressants or something simular. but i hate the idea of getting help. would rather ctb tbh. i smoke weed sometimes when times are really hard, just to hope it nummes some of my feelings, but it never does. maybe xans would help
medication like that can be of help if you do it alongside stuff like therapy, taking them alone will just give you a new addiction
 
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ostinat

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medication like that can be of help if you do it alongside stuff like therapy, taking them alone will just give you a new addiction
good point, but therapy is scarry. i dont like to open up irl, and they would probably find a way to force me to go to therapy if i start, so i don't really see that as an option
 
ElTopo

ElTopo

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good point, but therapy is scarry. i dont like to open up irl, and they would probably find a way to force me to go to therapy if i start, so i don't really see that as an option
I think you should keep it as an option, not saying it's the only solution but it's probably best if you don't do it because you don't wanna do it rather than don't do it because you're scared. If you're scared it's probably the way to go.
 
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ostinat

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I think you should keep it as an option, not saying it's the only solution but it's probably best if you don't do it because you don't wanna do it rather than don't do it because you're scared. If you're scared it's probably the way to go.
okay, i will descuss it with myself and maybe my gf... would you like an update?
 
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okay, i will descuss it with myself and maybe my gf... would you like an update?
I don't come to the site that often, but if you want to tag me again here go for it, I don't mind listening
 
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ostinat

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I don't come to the site that often, but if you want to tag me again here go for it, I don't mind listening
@ElTopo hey again, i talked to my gf anout what i should do, my fears and ect. and came to the conclution that i should try therapy. idk when i'll go, but i think i'll try.. wish me luck
 
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@ElTopo hey again, i talked to my gf anout what i should do, my fears and ect. and came to the conclution that i should try therapy. idk when i'll go, but i think i'll try.. wish me luck
It's probably the best to at least try, good luck
 
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Mirrors

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Good luck friend, I hope therapy is helpful to you
 

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