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downsolong

downsolong

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Dec 9, 2021
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after ingesting a test dose of street fentanyl, i awoke to men with walkie-talkies standing over me.
i am in sf, and it is not pure but is strong. it took 3 shots of narcan to revive me.
it took some calm persistence, but after refusing medical assistance they did let me walk off.
i am on a bus right now, two hours from the mission where i've been staying.
could call this a passive attempt, as i didn't care if my test dose put me on the last bus. i'd prefer to die more privately and with purpose, so glad i have a chance for that.
with such a small amount having such a strong effect, i'd guess that i have at least 10x the amount needed to place me firmly on the bus.
 
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outrider567

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Apr 5, 2022
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Well, you were certainly serious when you threatened to use F last March 28th--looks like you found out what you wanted regarding F
 
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Deathinminutes

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Apr 6, 2022
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after ingesting a test dose of street fentanyl, i awoke to men with walkie-talkies standing over me.
i am in sf, and it is not pure but is strong. it took 3 shots of narcan to revive me.
it took some calm persistence, but after refusing medical assistance they did let me walk off.
i am on a bus right now, two hours from the mission where i've been staying.
could call this a passive attempt, as i didn't care if my test dose put me on the last bus. i'd prefer to die more privately and with purpose, so glad i have a chance for that.
with such a small amount having such a strong effect, i'd guess that i have at least 10x the amount needed to place me firmly on the bus.
I really miss sf. Hope you have a chill Muni ride.
My spirit is still there, I can still feel the streets. Sending you good energy. Hope it finds you. When you ctb try and go somewhere nice. You know how they treat folks in the Mission & the TL.
 
downsolong

downsolong

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Dec 9, 2021
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I really miss sf. Hope you have a chill Muni ride.
My spirit is still there, I can still feel the streets. Sending you good energy. Hope it finds you. When you ctb try and go somewhere nice. You know how they treat folks in the Mission & the TL.
thank you. ride is calm, heading north a bit. trees, creeks, quiet.
Well, you were certainly serious when you threatened to use F last March 28th--looks like you found out what you wanted regarding F
it would have been a painless death. i don't remember hitting the ground.
 
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Deathinminutes

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Apr 6, 2022
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thank you. ride is calm, heading north a bit. trees, creeks, quiet.

it would have been a painless death. i don't remember hitting the ground.
Sounds nice. I'd go to Stinson if I were there now. I would go there to get away from the city for a short while. Never took anyone with me, only my mom the few times she came out to visit. Wanted to keep the energy pure. 🌉 🌊 🌊
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
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I wish I had F. It sounds like you have plenty. Peace be with you in whatever you decide
 
braindead91

braindead91

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May 5, 2022
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Always wanted to try F. Seems so peaceful.
 
Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
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I really miss sf. Hope you have a chill Muni ride.
My spirit is still there, I can still feel the streets. Sending you good energy. Hope it finds you. When you ctb try and go somewhere nice. You know how they treat folks in the Mission & the TL.
"Muni"? The Sanskrit word?
 
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Deathinminutes

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Apr 6, 2022
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"Muni"? The Sanskrit word?
Hi Ashu, no check out the link
 
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myopybyproxy

flickerbeat \\ gibberish-noise
Dec 18, 2021
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this is informative and encouraging, as f does most of the heavy lifting in my method.

what is your tolerance like?

how much did you take for your test dose?

route of administration and time til unconsciousness?
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,441
Thank you for sharing your experience. All that I want is to pass away peacefully, no one should have to resort to painful methods to end their suffering. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.
 
Shu

Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
2,487
I miss chilling in the TL. I love SF. Thanks for sharing. I love overdosed and it took them three things of narcan. That's a lot of narcan man.
 

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