A tragic, sad, empty and very painful life

[Terrible_Life]

When I die then all the pain will stop forever. I will be free from all my suffering. I am 26 but I feel like I'd be 75. I suffered a lot I had horrible moments in my life.
I never belonged to anything I was all the time a loneliness person trying to find his way in this huge world but I failed.
I can still be proud to myself because with all the handicaps I had I still went to the fight against this world and I fought 26 years long. Other people would've killed themself already with 14 or at latest with 20 but I stood there and saw hell into his eyes.

 

[The_Sadness_of_Life]

When do you plan to CTB?

 

[Terrible_Life]

When do you plan to CTB?

I wish I could do it right now but there are issues. The biggest issue is probably that I don't live alone. Then theres unfortunately si but I think that problem can be solved with 1 or 2 drinks. I hope that soon I will just do it and die.

 

[rustcohle4life]

I too feel like an old man before my time, it's horrible. I wish you nothing but peace my friend.

 

[Terrible_Life]

I too feel like an old man before my time, it's horrible. I wish you nothing but peace my friend.

Its so sad when life exhausts a young person so much that he feels like an old person and at the same time a healthy person in his age is able to enjoy his life. I think at the end I just had bad luck, no good cards to play with….it is what it is unfortunately