Manic Panic
Deaths Embrace
- Jan 5, 2025
- 707
Dear Lilith
This is going to be a rough one love and I'm sorry .It's getting worse again this pain is unlike anything I've felt ,it lingers and eats away at me. It takes so much every single day and people don't ever notice how much it takes just for me to be able to open my eyes in the morning. I'm suffering just to exist , solely living for the people who care. Everyone else would forget me within a month , they'd move on with whatever mundane boring lives they have and they wouldn't even bat a eye at my disappearance.
Sadly once you accept death in your life it doesn't ever let go , I overtakes every moment like a virus draining all that you are.
It leaves you craving to fade away ..
But I crave for everyone to cry over me and to hurt like I have . I'm selfish ... I want them to feel nothing but pain because it's all I've felt for years . I really hope it hurts them , I hope it leaves a deep scar that can't ever heal and it makes them as bad as I am.
Always note that I a piece of absolute shit and I understand now why everyone treats me as such. I'm not worth anyone's time , everyone forgets me and moves on its just how it works. They find me interesting , talk to me and then realize how fucked I am and they ignore my existence.
To be honest I'd rather became a statistic just so people understand how much they've hurt me .
Just put me on the mountain of suicides let me be another body they add to the pile ... one they forget like they did in life.
With Love
H
This is going to be a rough one love and I'm sorry .It's getting worse again this pain is unlike anything I've felt ,it lingers and eats away at me. It takes so much every single day and people don't ever notice how much it takes just for me to be able to open my eyes in the morning. I'm suffering just to exist , solely living for the people who care. Everyone else would forget me within a month , they'd move on with whatever mundane boring lives they have and they wouldn't even bat a eye at my disappearance.
Sadly once you accept death in your life it doesn't ever let go , I overtakes every moment like a virus draining all that you are.
It leaves you craving to fade away ..
But I crave for everyone to cry over me and to hurt like I have . I'm selfish ... I want them to feel nothing but pain because it's all I've felt for years . I really hope it hurts them , I hope it leaves a deep scar that can't ever heal and it makes them as bad as I am.
Always note that I a piece of absolute shit and I understand now why everyone treats me as such. I'm not worth anyone's time , everyone forgets me and moves on its just how it works. They find me interesting , talk to me and then realize how fucked I am and they ignore my existence.
To be honest I'd rather became a statistic just so people understand how much they've hurt me .
Just put me on the mountain of suicides let me be another body they add to the pile ... one they forget like they did in life.
With Love
H
