Once again someone in my family had a stroke. I think my mom has a lot of pressure currently I am scared that she will have another stroke too.
Had to make a very important financial decision. I could lose a lot of money. I won't go into details. Basically, I only have bad options. People adviced me against it. But from the options I have it is the least bad imo.
Yesterday, I texted with a woman of a dating app. She is therapist with alternative treatment methods. I sort of had the feeling she wanted to scam me into joining her seminar for more than 80 bucks. And the seminar was fucking unpopular. And it screamed I am a big waste of money. I was pretty convinced it was a scam. But more likely it might only was pretty aggressive marketing. I used an excuse. In the end she told me the same what my therapist once told me which surprised me because I considered that bullshit to that time. She is not interested in me because: "I have to talk more from my feelings and not from my knowledge. I have to come in contact with people by experiences and feelings." I am not sure about that. In my self-help group the women complimented me often for how I open I can speak as a man about my feelings. This therapist talked a lot of unscientific bullshit though. My friends said it would insane to listen to her. Lol.
Today I had my autism self-help group. And a dude talked without shame about his impotence and how he dislikes to get intimate with his wife. He does not even like her. Lol. There were 3 people in relationships and none of them had sex anymore with their partners. I think that's common for female autists to be less interested in sex. One woman never in her whole life had sex despite being in several relationships with men and women. This surprised me. She is an SA survivor though.
I am fucking paranoid all the time and struggle to sleep. I feel pretty bad currently.
Had to make a very important financial decision. I could lose a lot of money. I won't go into details. Basically, I only have bad options. People adviced me against it. But from the options I have it is the least bad imo.
Yesterday, I texted with a woman of a dating app. She is therapist with alternative treatment methods. I sort of had the feeling she wanted to scam me into joining her seminar for more than 80 bucks. And the seminar was fucking unpopular. And it screamed I am a big waste of money. I was pretty convinced it was a scam. But more likely it might only was pretty aggressive marketing. I used an excuse. In the end she told me the same what my therapist once told me which surprised me because I considered that bullshit to that time. She is not interested in me because: "I have to talk more from my feelings and not from my knowledge. I have to come in contact with people by experiences and feelings." I am not sure about that. In my self-help group the women complimented me often for how I open I can speak as a man about my feelings. This therapist talked a lot of unscientific bullshit though. My friends said it would insane to listen to her. Lol.
Today I had my autism self-help group. And a dude talked without shame about his impotence and how he dislikes to get intimate with his wife. He does not even like her. Lol. There were 3 people in relationships and none of them had sex anymore with their partners. I think that's common for female autists to be less interested in sex. One woman never in her whole life had sex despite being in several relationships with men and women. This surprised me. She is an SA survivor though.
I am fucking paranoid all the time and struggle to sleep. I feel pretty bad currently.
