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DD2020

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I first joined this site in 2020. I find myself coming back from time to time.

Like many that find themselves here they have not had an easy life, suffer loneliness and might make repeated attempts as recovery and rebound back into depression. that being said there is loads to be grateful for and I do see that, except I am always numb and too sad to enjoy life.

I have discovered that low vitamins b12 and d often are the precursor that leads to a decline in my mental health. Regardless that decline is severe.

I haven't successfully acted on my desire to leave the world behind...making several unsuccessful attempts. One thing I am partially reluctant to leave is I have 3 cats that I worry about as they don't deserve their lives to be horribly impacted.

So I am here back again, wondering how many find themselves back here many times over the years?

I am at present trying to discover a way to slowly over time end my existence...not entirely successful in my searches in hwo i xan achieve this...but in am left thinking if there is such a resource perhaps I can gradually ensure my exit.
 
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