woofwag
Bad dog
- Sep 17, 2025
- 168
TW for self-harm for this whole thing
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I found an image on Twitter a month or so ago depicting two boys sitting next to each while one cut and one drank. The one who was cutting was making some long vent about his life being meaningless, and how he should just die, and how the other was pathetic because he would probably mourn him forever. The one who was drinking then says, "Holy shit can you please shut the fuck up your voice is giving me a migraine." I'll link the image here, again TW for self harm and drinking
And oh. my god. The second I saw that image I became obsessed with wanting a dynamic like that IRL. The way one is just casually self-harming next to the other who's drinking. The way his shirt says, "IM SCHIZO BLOW BOTH OF ME." The nihilism mixed with the way they insult each other. And you can tell they like it, that it's all part of their doomerist dynamic. I need a pathetic depressed loner emo in my life to drag into my problems and get fucked up with. Like I'm pretty pathetic myself, but IRL I'm actually quite a colorful and bubbly person. I make an active effort to be charming to people, and it pays off. But I know my charm doesn't attract that kind of person. And I don't know where to find a loner emo anyway because they're, well, loners. I'm avoidant myself, so I don't go out much.
I was on call with my friend a few weeks ago, and was talking about that very same picture. We're both pretty jaded ourselves, and process the world through thick layers of irony. They get it, and said it was a great image. I told them,
"Remember back when we first met, and you offered to cut with me? And I said it would be crossing a line I didn't think we could come back from."
"Yeah," they replied.
"God, I should have fucking said yes!" And we both laughed.
"You really should have," they giggled through puffs of their cigarette, which they've apparently got themselves addicted to again.
"It would have made us so much more toxic," they said, and I agreed.
But fuuuuuuuuucckkkk how I want that. Just someone to be a lil toxic with and fall deeper into our problems together and be miserable, talking of how everything is meaningless and we're both jaded in the face of it all. And ofc, cut together and not give a shit about it. Everyone I know sees self-harm as a bad thing, which is fair, but it's not really that bad for me. I do it very infrequently, and as a last resort. I've never fucked myself up super bad or anything. Plus, I like the scars. Idk, I guess I just want someone who doesn't try to make things better. Just lets it be bad, and lets us be depressed together and accept that as our fate.
Anyways sorry this was exceptionally long. Can you tell I'm a writer? lol
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I found an image on Twitter a month or so ago depicting two boys sitting next to each while one cut and one drank. The one who was cutting was making some long vent about his life being meaningless, and how he should just die, and how the other was pathetic because he would probably mourn him forever. The one who was drinking then says, "Holy shit can you please shut the fuck up your voice is giving me a migraine." I'll link the image here, again TW for self harm and drinking
And oh. my god. The second I saw that image I became obsessed with wanting a dynamic like that IRL. The way one is just casually self-harming next to the other who's drinking. The way his shirt says, "IM SCHIZO BLOW BOTH OF ME." The nihilism mixed with the way they insult each other. And you can tell they like it, that it's all part of their doomerist dynamic. I need a pathetic depressed loner emo in my life to drag into my problems and get fucked up with. Like I'm pretty pathetic myself, but IRL I'm actually quite a colorful and bubbly person. I make an active effort to be charming to people, and it pays off. But I know my charm doesn't attract that kind of person. And I don't know where to find a loner emo anyway because they're, well, loners. I'm avoidant myself, so I don't go out much.
I was on call with my friend a few weeks ago, and was talking about that very same picture. We're both pretty jaded ourselves, and process the world through thick layers of irony. They get it, and said it was a great image. I told them,
"Remember back when we first met, and you offered to cut with me? And I said it would be crossing a line I didn't think we could come back from."
"Yeah," they replied.
"God, I should have fucking said yes!" And we both laughed.
"You really should have," they giggled through puffs of their cigarette, which they've apparently got themselves addicted to again.
"It would have made us so much more toxic," they said, and I agreed.
But fuuuuuuuuucckkkk how I want that. Just someone to be a lil toxic with and fall deeper into our problems together and be miserable, talking of how everything is meaningless and we're both jaded in the face of it all. And ofc, cut together and not give a shit about it. Everyone I know sees self-harm as a bad thing, which is fair, but it's not really that bad for me. I do it very infrequently, and as a last resort. I've never fucked myself up super bad or anything. Plus, I like the scars. Idk, I guess I just want someone who doesn't try to make things better. Just lets it be bad, and lets us be depressed together and accept that as our fate.
Anyways sorry this was exceptionally long. Can you tell I'm a writer? lol
