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knickknack81
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- Apr 28, 2025
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Hey everybody.
So for a number of reasons, I have been struggling and having thoughts of CTB. Nothing I have seriously acted upon yet but something that I think about far too much and if things dont get better, I think the time will come for me to take this route. There are a number of things that make me hesitate any drastic actions. One of those is the effect it will have on the people around me. I dont have a ton of close friends or family but I do have a few that will be effected by this. The main one is an old girlfriend of mine who we are still super close friends. We were able to save our friendship after we broke up and are still in each others lives on good terms. The thing is, she suffers from really bad bi-polar and depression. She has been on serious medication for a number of years and goes to therapy/psych all the time to deal with her mental health issues. And I strongly believe that if I was to CTB, this would seriously hurt her. Possibly make her go off the deep end. Id hate to even picture the possibilities that could come from this. It's maybe the biggest concern I have going through with this act. Don't get me wrong, I know others would be really sad and effected by me not being around but this one is something more. Is there anyone out there who can relate to something like this? If so, how do you go about dealing with it?
Thanks!
So for a number of reasons, I have been struggling and having thoughts of CTB. Nothing I have seriously acted upon yet but something that I think about far too much and if things dont get better, I think the time will come for me to take this route. There are a number of things that make me hesitate any drastic actions. One of those is the effect it will have on the people around me. I dont have a ton of close friends or family but I do have a few that will be effected by this. The main one is an old girlfriend of mine who we are still super close friends. We were able to save our friendship after we broke up and are still in each others lives on good terms. The thing is, she suffers from really bad bi-polar and depression. She has been on serious medication for a number of years and goes to therapy/psych all the time to deal with her mental health issues. And I strongly believe that if I was to CTB, this would seriously hurt her. Possibly make her go off the deep end. Id hate to even picture the possibilities that could come from this. It's maybe the biggest concern I have going through with this act. Don't get me wrong, I know others would be really sad and effected by me not being around but this one is something more. Is there anyone out there who can relate to something like this? If so, how do you go about dealing with it?
Thanks!