20 Days Left Till Euthanasia

[plzoffme]

The days are counting down and as they do I am losing my human emotions. I have made several half hearted attempts at ending my life over the years mainly via (Hanging). I found the method of which you do CTB matters a lot to the person who is trying to CTB. I own a gun and have tired that method but to much fear to pull the trigger. I have drove to high structures but could not get past SI to jump. I have tried to OD on pills which would have been successful had someone not saved me :(. Its crazy how much planning goes into trying to CTB the correct way. Things like location, time, method, and what day all play a factor. Some people can pick up a gun and blow their brains out no issues, while others could never get past SI with that method :( Each person is different in this way and for me I have had to find what causes the least SI. Personally, I am going to OD on a substance 10x stronger then Fentanyl and luckily my brain is not afraid of this method lol. I see why a lot of people on this forum choose SN as a method because its less scary and its peaceful. Anyway, I am happy I get to spend the last of my days on here reading all of your stories and I have found comfort that I am not alone. I am still working out if I should CTB in a hotel room or out in nature. Anyway, just felt like typing something out for today. I hope all of you find your peace & ill make a post the night I plan to CTB documenting the whole thing.

 

[enough of this]

The days are counting down and as they do I am losing my human emotions. I have made several half hearted attempts at ending my life over the years mainly via (Hanging). I found the method of which you do CTB matters a lot to the person who is trying to CTB. I own a gun and have tired that method but to much fear to pull the trigger. I have drove to high structures but could not get past SI to jump. I have tried to OD on pills which would have been successful had someone not saved me :(. Its crazy how much planning goes into trying to CTB the correct way. Things like location, time, method, and what day all play a factor. Some people can pick up a gun and blow their brains out no issues, while others could never get past SI with that method :( Each person is different in this way and for me I have had to find what causes the least SI. Personally, I am going to OD on a substance 10x stronger then Fentanyl and luckily my brain is not afraid of this method lol. I see why a lot of people on this forum choose SN as a method because its less scary and its peaceful. Anyway, I am happy I get to spend the last of my days on here reading all of your stories and I have found comfort that I am not alone. I am still working out if I should CTB in a hotel room or out in nature. Anyway, just felt like typing something out for today. I hope all of you find your peace & ill make a post the night I plan to CTB documenting the whole thing.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

how many grams or miligrams and what way snorting , injecting , drinking?

 

[plzoffme]

how many grams or miligrams and what way snorting , injecting , drinking?

its 1 gram but this stuff is POTENT! High tolerance users take 10-20 UGs not even MGS.... i plan on swallowing the whole gram...

 

[Traveller12724]

You're right I have always found it fascinating how some methods are bearable to some people but not others, for example I couldn't pull off hanging or jumping but sn sounds pretty good and bearable to me so that's how I am going out. Only a mere months and I am on the way, it was good to read your post fellow traveler, best of luck to you!!

 

[maniac116]

The days are counting down and as they do I am losing my human emotions. I have made several half hearted attempts at ending my life over the years mainly via (Hanging). I found the method of which you do CTB matters a lot to the person who is trying to CTB. I own a gun and have tired that method but to much fear to pull the trigger. I have drove to high structures but could not get past SI to jump. I have tried to OD on pills which would have been successful had someone not saved me :(. Its crazy how much planning goes into trying to CTB the correct way. Things like location, time, method, and what day all play a factor. Some people can pick up a gun and blow their brains out no issues, while others could never get past SI with that method :( Each person is different in this way and for me I have had to find what causes the least SI. Personally, I am going to OD on a substance 10x stronger then Fentanyl and luckily my brain is not afraid of this method lol. I see why a lot of people on this forum choose SN as a method because its less scary and its peaceful. Anyway, I am happy I get to spend the last of my days on here reading all of your stories and I have found comfort that I am not alone. I am still working out if I should CTB in a hotel room or out in nature. Anyway, just felt like typing something out for today. I hope all of you find your peace & ill make a post the night I plan to CTB documenting the whole thing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[cait_sith]

Hi, Can you say name of the substance?

 

[plzoffme]

Hi, Can you say name of the substance?

its called Isotonitazene

 

[2muchpain2]

if you were to ctb in nature would you just take the pills outside somewhere and hope no one finds you? Or would you set up camp and those kinds of things?

 

[fuyuu]

just curious, do you happen to know how long it'll take to work? and i wish u a peaceful journey <3

 

[plzoffme]

just curious, do you happen to know how long it'll take to work? and i wish u a peaceful journey <3

works instantly

 

[Malfunction]

I'd gladly take a firearm lol.

Seriously though, I hope you find peace my friend.

 

[Raindancer]

Nature sounds nice, that would be my first choice. I would like to go either in a forest or on a deserted beach. It's funny, I came here never understanding how difficult finding a method would be. I hope your last days are filled with peace, and thank you again.

 

[HopeNotLong]

I hope you find peace. I will be desperately waiting for my day..

 

[plzoffme]

if you were to ctb in nature would you just take the pills outside somewhere and hope no one finds you? Or would you set up camp and those kinds of things?

Hard to say, I would def need to be somewhere that people do not go often, like off a trail or something.

if you were to ctb in nature would you just take the pills outside somewhere and hope no one finds you? Or would you set up camp and those kinds of things?

Hard to say, I would def need to be somewhere that people do not go often, like off a trail or something. A hotel room would be better because I would not be bothered for at least 8 hours.

I'd gladly take a firearm lol.

Seriously though, I hope you find peace my friend.

I tried man.... I tried so many times but SI just will not let me pull the trigger + there is a chance of survival.

 

[idiotmother]

Was it hard to source?

 

[plzoffme]

Was it hard to source?

no very easy

 

[idiotmother]

no very easy

Do you have any idea how the dying process is with it? Like is it peaceful?

 

[gameoverman]

You Americans have it so good: easy access to firearms and opioids. Meanwhile the only options for CTB I have in my European shithole are hanging and SN which both suck.

 

[WonderWhatsOutThere]

You Americans have it so good: easy access to firearms and opioids. Meanwhile the only options for CTB I have in my European shithole are hanging and SN which both suck.

I've heard SN is easier to get in Europe, though. Most Americans can easily acquire either firearms or opioids, but if you have a history of mental health struggles or hospitalizations like myself, you are prohibited from buying a firearm and the FBI will contact you if you try. Opioids are still an option, but not for me because I have a genetic mutation that makes me extremely resistant to them. Could I still take enough for it to end me? Yeah, probably. But it's much more up in the air how much I should take and if it'll even work.

The days are counting down and as they do I am losing my human emotions. I have made several half hearted attempts at ending my life over the years mainly via (Hanging). I found the method of which you do CTB matters a lot to the person who is trying to CTB. I own a gun and have tired that method but to much fear to pull the trigger. I have drove to high structures but could not get past SI to jump. I have tried to OD on pills which would have been successful had someone not saved me :(. Its crazy how much planning goes into trying to CTB the correct way. Things like location, time, method, and what day all play a factor. Some people can pick up a gun and blow their brains out no issues, while others could never get past SI with that method :( Each person is different in this way and for me I have had to find what causes the least SI. Personally, I am going to OD on a substance 10x stronger then Fentanyl and luckily my brain is not afraid of this method lol. I see why a lot of people on this forum choose SN as a method because its less scary and its peaceful. Anyway, I am happy I get to spend the last of my days on here reading all of your stories and I have found comfort that I am not alone. I am still working out if I should CTB in a hotel room or out in nature. Anyway, just felt like typing something out for today. I hope all of you find your peace & ill make a post the night I plan to CTB documenting the whole thing.

Where did you decide to CTB? I'm in the same position

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

Do you have any idea how the dying process is with it? Like is it peaceful?

It should. Opiates work the same way, just different in potency. An intense rush (that in this case i dont think it's going to last very long) followed by losing consciousness.

 

[idiotmother]

It should. Opiates work the same way, just different in potency. An intense rush (that in this case i dont think it's going to last very long) followed by losing consciousness.

Wish I knew enough about dark web to get some for myself, I'm too exhausted to figure anything out. Such a screw up . It sounds confusing having to downloads browsers and what not, but an easy death is enviable.

 

[NellyGoes]

The days are counting down and as they do I am losing my human emotions. I have made several half hearted attempts at ending my life over the years mainly via (Hanging). I found the method of which you do CTB matters a lot to the person who is trying to CTB. I own a gun and have tired that method but to much fear to pull the trigger. I have drove to high structures but could not get past SI to jump. I have tried to OD on pills which would have been successful had someone not saved me :(. Its crazy how much planning goes into trying to CTB the correct way. Things like location, time, method, and what day all play a factor. Some people can pick up a gun and blow their brains out no issues, while others could never get past SI with that method :( Each person is different in this way and for me I have had to find what causes the least SI. Personally, I am going to OD on a substance 10x stronger then Fentanyl and luckily my brain is not afraid of this method lol. I see why a lot of people on this forum choose SN as a method because its less scary and its peaceful. Anyway, I am happy I get to spend the last of my days on here reading all of your stories and I have found comfort that I am not alone. I am still working out if I should CTB in a hotel room or out in nature. Anyway, just felt like typing something out for today. I hope all of you find your peace & ill make a post the night I plan to CTB documenting the whole thing.

May I ask why you chose your date? I wish I could just do it right away but for me it has to be a certain fitting date too.

Also are you planning to not be found ever? Or planning and scheduling stuff to be found (after a safe time when you'll be 100% dead)?

And thanks for sharing your method btw. Did you get it on the dark net? We need more options for easy exits that are reasonable to source! Every adult should have this option available (we must keep it safe from kids though of course ).