Today marks 13 years since I lost my best friend.
I had moved from Canada to the US just shy of five months earlier in order to take my first full time job. The hardest part was leaving him behind, knowing that his condition could worsen at any time and he could die. I left with his blessing, though. He knew it was important to me.
I had heard for weeks that he was nearing the end. I was making plans to visit him. I was going to fly out on Monday, because I had a big concert on Sunday and rehearsals in the days preceding. He died Sunday, while the concert was going on. I never got to see him before he died. I never got to say goodbye.
He was my best friend, but he was also the love of my life. He hated that he couldn't love me in the same way I loved him. He never let it affect our friendship. We stayed best of friends always.
I've never recovered from his death. In fact, I've spent the last 13 years trying to find that same connection with others. It's resulted in nothing but heartbreak and life complications.
I miss him every day still, and I can't wait to be with him again.
I had moved from Canada to the US just shy of five months earlier in order to take my first full time job. The hardest part was leaving him behind, knowing that his condition could worsen at any time and he could die. I left with his blessing, though. He knew it was important to me.
I had heard for weeks that he was nearing the end. I was making plans to visit him. I was going to fly out on Monday, because I had a big concert on Sunday and rehearsals in the days preceding. He died Sunday, while the concert was going on. I never got to see him before he died. I never got to say goodbye.
He was my best friend, but he was also the love of my life. He hated that he couldn't love me in the same way I loved him. He never let it affect our friendship. We stayed best of friends always.
I've never recovered from his death. In fact, I've spent the last 13 years trying to find that same connection with others. It's resulted in nothing but heartbreak and life complications.
I miss him every day still, and I can't wait to be with him again.
